Venting Haven’t had a single positive life experience since childhood

[Pride]

I feel the only reason my childhood was sorta normal was for fate (or whatever you call it) to torture me even more, if my childhood was ass I would have probably roped earlier therefore I wouldn’t have suffered as much.

And this isn’t about relationships either, every aspect of my life has gone to shit. Been betrayed by people I considered family and forgotten by everyone else.

It feels that every time I have some hope and I want to be shit, fate bitchslaps me back to my place.

I at least want to believe that all of this is the result of pure chance but it can’t be, no one has this much bad luck it’s not possible.

 

[Anonicluse]

I made some positive memories during my childhood, when i was around 8-14 and while they are pretty vague when i try to recall them at this point, i very clearly remember how i felt during those moments in my life, and i will continue to reminisce and savour those memories of what i felt until the day i die.

Even if i lost everything, i would still be able to cope through my memories, im glad i made some positive experiences and not zero of them. when shit genuinely becomes unbearable to deal with, that is what i turn to. i was such a clueless little shit back then.