lol, when I was a dumb fuck teen that didn’t know any better, I think I cried over a oneitis that I had at the time seemingly rejecting me.
In retrospect now that I am much older and wiser and have read up on PUA literature, evopsyche and all that fun stuff, I don’t feel so bad about this time in my life or my lot in life in general anymore, as I’ve discovered that most of the girls/women I’ve been attracted to if not all were truly garbage human beings.
Its not sour grapes or a cope for me to say that either, its the truth and I’ve also come to accept the flaw in myself genetic or otherwise that causes me to yearn for and desire such rotten types.
I think now that its probably another part of one or more of my mental illnesses as in I probably desire hateful moral garbage tier women out of some depression based sub conscious self hatred and deep intrinsic feelings of worthlessness that tell me that I simply don’t deserve someone on a higher level, meaning a woman that is not only attractive and engaging but intelligent, intune, caring and kind and deeply moral.
Not that I could ever obtain either kind of woman as a Wizard mind you, but just saying.
