That number that automatically pops up when you Google suicide, I called it a few times, first time was after someone called me ugly online and I had a breakdown and punched myself in the face hard AF giving myself two black eyes, and I called them and said "I need help I did something stupid" and the guy literally fucking said "what the hell" under his breath and hung up, then I called again and connected to this woman and it's just so obvious they really are just volunteers and don't actually know what they are doing, like these are literally the people you're supposed to call when you're thinking about roping and it's always some braindead middle aged person who sounds tired as fuck, it's insane
