Blackpill [Hard To Swallow Edition] Stop Larping As If You Hate Women If You Can't Enjoy Paid Sex Because There's No "Attraction" Or "Validation" (Coping Hard)

[BlkPillPres]

Also one has to give up Anime and let the hate and frustration build up. And when it is really going through the roofs it is your cue to go to a bitxh and let it all out on her.

I might actually try this, what you're saying makes a lot of sense when I think about it and reflect on my own experiences. The more frustrated and "on edge" you are the more you enjoy fucking and the better the "mental ease" that comes afterwards

I was really sexually frustrated before I fucked my first whore, I was sometimes up all nigh unable to fall asleep thinking about sex, porn just didn't work anymore, shit got really bad, thought I would have to kill myself, it was getting to that point

After I fucked her I didn't masturbate for like a week and a half, the urge was still there but it wasn't strong, I was satisfied in ways I didn't even think were possible

Now imagine if I could experience this every week for the rest of my life, I'd never want for anything again, all my rage would dissipate

This is why I laugh whenever I see incels on this forum compare fucking a prostitute to masturbation - "Just get a fleshlight bro"

Its not even remotely close, everything just "feels right in the universe" after you fuck

Oh, and for the idiots reading, it doesn't matter if she validates you or not, you will still enjoy the sex. Men in the past did not give a fuck about that shit, you guys are projecting your modern day norms and values onto biology, there is no biological inclination to want validation from women, thousands of years ago rape was a normal everything thing men did, they did not give a fuck about "female validation", you are indoctrinated

And if people are really pissed off about escort prices they will eventually get the motivation to do whatever it takes to get cheaper sex, their motivation does not depend on what others do, that means they will geomaxxx, or even rape if they are really really desperate

because you will eventually become desperate enough for female flesh like you are desperate for porn now

This

 

[highinhibition]

I might actually try this, what you're saying makes a lot of sense when I think about it and reflect on my own experiences. The more frustrated and "on edge" you are the more you enjoy fucking and the better the "mental ease" that comes afterwards

I was really sexually frustrated before I fucked my first whore, I was sometimes up all nigh unable to fall asleep thinking about sex, porn just didn't work anymore, shit got really bad, thought I would have to kill myself, it was getting to that point

After I fucked her I didn't masturbate for like a week and a half, the urge was still there but it wasn't strong, I was satisfied in ways I didn't even think were possible

Now imagine if I could experience this every week for the rest of my life, I'd never want for anything again, all my rage would dissipate

This is why I laugh whenever I see incels on this forum compare fucking a prostitute to masturbation - "Just get a fleshlight bro"

Its not even remotely close, everything just "feels right in the universe" after you fuck

Oh, and for the idiots reading, it doesn't matter if she validates you or not, you will still enjoy the sex. Men in the past did not give a fuck about that shit, you guys are projecting your modern day norms and values onto biology, there is no biological inclination to want validation from women, thousands of years ago rape was a normal everything thing men did, they did not give a fuck about "female validation", you are indoctrinated

This is all easier said than done

We get so much stress everyday that ragefuel turns into suicidefuel,

I think it is harder to condition your brain to go to a prostitute if you feel sad than it is to go there when you feel rage.

When you go there and you are depressed and cannot get your dick up because you feel so sad it is really a problem, but you still watch porn if you are depressed, you maybe even watch more probably, you repeat the same behaviours because it simulates the real thing to a degree but still does not satify you entirely.

Thats why experience is really important, it is tempting to cope with standard stuff like LDAR instead but you just have to keep going to the brothel and surpress tears at all cost.

Many here are really feeling hopeless and it is kinda difficult to motivate them to fuck a prostitute but every man here holds alot of resentment towards foids and they have ragefantasies sometimes to kill foids.

And in those moments you have to go to a prostitute

sadness is in fact rage

the ability to feel rage is your brain trying to motivate you towards doing something and it costs a lot of energy ressources to stay in this mental state, if left unanswered your body therefore has to fall into a depressed state again to recharge energy.
The problem of sexual dissatisfication is however not solved yet and thats why your body goes back to your rage state

sadness always goes and return but so does rage

if you want to break free from this circle you have to answer your rage and go to prostitues when you feel enraged but not when you are sad

 

[BlkPillPres]

That being said, I want a relationship that's rooted in genuine emotional investment and commitment.

That shit was never real dude, women were FORCED to be with average men due to not having rights, what were dealing with today is how women actually feel about men, the shit you are obsessed with is a fairy tale that was never real, grow up already

And that's only happening for the majority of men if we stop our value systems from dropping into hedonism, and exercise some dignity and not feed into or tolerate promiscuity.

Never going to happen, so whats next?

Do nothing and die a virgin?

Refuse to change your path and pursue an alternative one just for the sake of your arbitrary "morals" and your ego?

Because that's the usual plan for every anti-escortcel, and guess what, THAT'S NOT A PLAN

Doing nothing and refusing to be realistic IS NOT A PLAN

Escorting is a hard no.

Then you might as well kill yourself now, a lot of you guys aren't really thinking this through, being a 50+ year old sex starved virgin isn't going to be an enjoyable existence

The older you get the more tired of life you get, and your quality of life has a multiplier effect on that experience

So you are thinking with your "20's" brain (I'm assuming you are in your 20's) and thinking you are going to feel the way you do now and you can "handle it", but what you don't realize is that the mental strain is going to kill you slowly

Only suffering awaits you

More and more sex is going to be pumped into the music around you, the media you consume, the video games you play, the books you read, etc, you will be inundated with sex and reminded decade after decade of what you are missing out on

Maybe if you are lucky your libido will be dead by 35 or 40, but is that really a "win", that just sounds so pathetic to me

"Good, I'm neutered, now I can more comfortably be a childish fool"

Greater men before you have paid for sex, it takes a high level or arrogance to assert that its somehow beneath you as if you are above these men throughout history that have left their mark. Whereas history won't even remember you at all.

This is all easier said than done

We get so much stress everyday that ragefuel turns into suicidefuel,

I think it is harder to condition your brain to go to a prostitute if you feel sad than it is to go there when you feel rage.

When you go there and you are depressed and cannot get your dick up because you feel so sad it is really a problem, but you still watch porn if you are depressed, you maybe even watch more probably, you repeat the same behaviours because it simulates the real thing to a degree but still does not satify you entirely.

Thats why experience is really important, it is tempting to cope with standard stuff like LDAR instead but you just have to keep going to the brothel and surpress tears at all cost.

Many here are really feeling hopeless and it is kinda difficult to motivate them to fuck a prostitute but every man here holds alot of resentment towards foids and they have ragefantasies sometimes to kill foids.

And in those moments you have to go to a prostitute

sadness is in fact rage

the ability to feel rage is your brain trying to motivate you towards doing something and it costs a lot of energy ressources to stay in this mental state, if left unanswered your body therefore has to fall into a depressed state again to recharge energy.
The problem of sexual dissatisfication is however not solved yet and thats why your body goes back to your rage state

sadness always goes and return but so does rage

if you want to break free from this circle you have to answer your rage and go to prostitues when you feel enraged but not when you are sad

I already know its going to take a few months or even a year to "untrain my brain" of the behaviors that my mind associates with sex

I've talked about this before in a thread:

Whether You First Have Sex By "Ascending" Or Prostitution, It's Going To Feel Like It's "Lacking" & Weird (That's Because Of Porn NOT "No Validation") | Incels.is - Involuntary Celibate

Today I want to talk about something that I have never seen talked about on any forum really, much less an incel forum, and I think this is something VERY IMPORTANT that many incels who plan on "ascending" need to prepare for, and its also very important for incels who plan on paying for sex...

incels.is

I have a long road of ahead of me before I get to any point in my life in which I would call "success"

 

[WarriorScholar]

That shit was never real dude, women were FORCED to be with average men due to not having rights, what were dealing with today is how women actually feel about men, the shit you are obsessed with is a fairy tale that was never real, grow up already


Never going to happen, so whats next?

Do nothing and die a virgin?

Refuse to change your path and pursue an alternative one just for the sake of your arbitrary "morals" and your ego?

Because that's the usual plan for every anti-escortcel, and guess what, THAT'S NOT A PLAN

Doing nothing and refusing to be realistic IS NOT A PLAN


Then you might as well kill yourself now, a lot of you guys aren't really thinking this through, being a 50+ year old sex starved virgin isn't going to be an enjoyable existence

The older you get the more tired of life you get, and your quality of life has a multiplier effect on that experience

So you are thinking with your "20's" brain (I'm assuming you are in your 20's) and thinking you are going to feel the way you do now and you can "handle it", but what you don't realize is that the mental strain is going to kill you slowly

Only suffering awaits you

More and more sex is going to be pumped into the music around you, the media you consume, the video games you play, the books you read, etc, you will be inundated with sex and reminded decade after decade of what you are missing out on

Maybe if you are lucky your libido will be dead by 35 or 40, but is that really a "win", that just sounds so pathetic to me

"Good, I'm neutered, now I can more comfortably be a childish fool"

Greater men before you have paid for sex, it takes a high level or arrogance to assert that its somehow beneath you as if you are above these men throughout history that have left their mark. Whereas history won't even remember you at all.






I already know its going to take a few months or even a year to "untrain my brain" of the behaviors that my mind associates with sex

I've talked about this before in a thread:

Whether You First Have Sex By "Ascending" Or Prostitution, It's Going To Feel Like It's "Lacking" & Weird (That's Because Of Porn NOT "No Validation") | Incels.is - Involuntary Celibate

Today I want to talk about something that I have never seen talked about on any forum really, much less an incel forum, and I think this is something VERY IMPORTANT that many incels who plan on "ascending" need to prepare for, and its also very important for incels who plan on paying for sex...

incels.is

I have a long road of ahead of me before I get to any point in my life in which I would call "success"

On what basis are you saying it will never happen? I know you're aware of the exceptions. As much as we like to espouse the "hopelessness" of finding that kind of relationship the reality is: people you and me mog have had it, even in the modern era, but it required sacrifice, and even then it wasn't guaranteed.

It's easier to stay in a bubble of cyclical hate and denial, where a person can just stagnate, seek pleasure and wait for the world to end; then to acknowledge the unassailable truth that you have a decent chance in your life time - provided it matters enough to you, you're willing to take responsibility for your side of the problem, and can acknowledge, accept and face the capacity for great evil and redeeming good of both men and women.

That's why it's better to do everything you can to take on responsibility for yourself and the world. That way, you're not only encouraging a healthier culture that promotes chastity to your benefit, but also putting yourself in a position where you can grasp the opportunities open to you when you do your best.

Not settling for anything less then the idyllic is true masculinity.

 

[your personality]

I notice that a lot of incels refuse to pay for sex because they'd hate the idea of a whore showing signs of disgust during sex, and I find it so ironic because these are the same guys who go around the forum trying to be edgelords, laughing it up at stories of women being beaten, abused, killed, raped, etc

They act as if they hate women when it comes to their words and "online persona", but when it comes to their "real life actions", out goes the hatred, and that's because they are faking it, they are in denial

THEY ALREADY HAVE WOMEN PEDESTALIZED AS "HIGHER BEINGS" IN THEIR PSYCHE

This is why they can't stand the idea of being judged as "not good enough" by a woman

So even something that is the peak of physical pleasure (sex) will be avoided UNLESS IT IS SANCTIONED BY A WOMAN

Take this video for example (has been posted on the forum before as a reason to not pay for sex):
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Many incels see something like this as a reason to not escortcel, that shows they have a normie mindset

To me this is a video showing that when a man stops giving a fuck about society, women, and focuses on his own desires he can enjoy himself

Seriously, who gives a fuck whether she's disgusted or not, you're paying and you're getting what you paid for

I would prefer that she not even do it behind my back, do it to my face, it would just make it more enjoyable for me tbh

I'm hoping that one day I can have a full head of gray like this guy in the video and get some tight young whore to submit to me sexually for a bit of cash, this video is a life goal

This is why I can't understand all the "I want validation and affection" incels

They go around the forum larping as if they hate women, using all the "meme words" (foids, holes, acid-faced, etc) but its all a sham, its not genuine, their real life actions do not match their words

REALLY AND TRULY THEY LOVE, IDOLIZE AND REVERE WOMEN

They are just kidding themselves

If a look of disgust from a woman during sex detracts from your enjoyment of the act, then you don't really hate women

You don't see them as "foids"

You don't see them as "holes"

You are just coping, you are larping online pretending to be someone you aren't



Think about it:
After years and years of bullying, taunting, insults, rejection, etc from women, wouldn't a woman begrudgingly having sex with you be more mentally and physically satisfying than a woman having sex with you because "she wants to"?

The mindset of most incels shows that they are all really just larping and "trying to be edgy", they haven't TRULY accepted that they are incel yet

They don't really hate women

They don't really hate normies

They don't really hate society

They are pretty much just FAILED NORMIES (at least mentally)



They are just biding their time here on the forum, throwing around memes, hoping that one day they get to "ascend" in their real life, so they can treat the time they spent here as "a phase"

They haven't truly accepted the black pill and their place in the world yet, and that's why they have not mentally adapted to having "sexual proclivities" that reflect the reality they exist in

If you truly hated women then your sexual interests would also begin to reflect that hate

There was a time in my life where I probably did want "validation" and "mutual attraction"

But once I accepted the black pill and accepted the reality of this world and where I stood within it, over time my desires began to reshape themselves to be better suited to that reality, it wasn't even on purpose, it "just happened"

I didn't start off with a "rape fetish", that came about naturally as a result of what I experienced at the hands of women and society

It is not hard for one to derive pleasure from the discomfort of their enemies, I don't have to "try" to enjoy it, the moment I realized where I stood in life and who my enemies were the enjoyment came naturally

My mind adapted, and it was passive

The incels who can't enjoy paid sex are still mentally normies, on some level they still see themselves as "human" and as "part of society".

They are still clinging to the normie world, there's a little parcel of hope somewhere in their heart which makes them "cling to humanity", some are so deluded they actually believe that "things may change in my lifetime"

They are all coping hard

For better or worse that's the culture on these forums. It's always been full of contradictions between claiming to not care what women think and wanting validation from women. Many incels are just ugly normies that can somehow reconcile these contradictions with no problem.

 

[BlkPillPres]

On what basis are you saying it will never happen? I know you're aware of the exceptions. As much as we like to espouse the "hopelessness" of finding that kind of relationship the reality is: people you and me mog have had it, even in the modern era, but it required sacrifice, and even then it wasn't guaranteed.

On the basis of statistics I'm saying it will never happen

Once in my life I threw a coin up in the air and because of the flooring it landed on its side and remained up on its side

Because I pulled this off once I would not be so stupid to assume that I could get it done again, the coin landed near a specific groove at a specific angle after a random toss

I did try again many times, it did not happen again

Just to make my point clear, what you want is never going to happen due to the statistical unlikelihood of it happening

Saying "exceptions exist so I'm going to bet my entire life on me getting lucky" just shows that you have the mindset of a woman, you are too emotional, you aren't being rational. Women can afford to think like this because they are the ones that are pursued, they are the prey not the hunter. The hunter can't lie around hoping that one day his prey is going to just approach him and he gets some once in a lifetime opportunity, a hunter who thinks like this is more likely to starve to death than to get is magical oppurtunity

It's easier to stay in a bubble of cyclical hate and denial, where a person can just stagnate, seek pleasure and wait for the world to end;

Imagine saying that your goal is to somehow become an exception to the rule while asserting that other people are in denial

I don't think you know the meaning of the words you use

you have a decent chance in your life time

You know full well you are lying to yourself, else you would never have said "I know you're aware of the exceptions"

An "exception" is the exact opposite of "a decent chance"

provided it matters enough to you

They don't matter at all if were being objective, you are just being childish and clinging to a dream you had when you were younger

You can go ahead and waste your life but don't come back here 10 years later to complain as if nobody warned you

You lose the right to complain if you refuse to accept reality and that ruins your life

you're willing to take responsibility for your side of the problem, and can acknowledge, accept and face the capacity for great evil and redeeming good of both men and women.

You are talking a lot of shit for someone who chooses to remain on some obscure forum for losers

Anyone can see how deluded you are but sadly you can't distance yourself enough from the situation to see that yourself

What you are describing REQUIRES OTHER PEOPLE TO TAKE PART

Are you writing any books about this social change you want?

Are you going on any talk shows?

Are you spreading your message in places where it would actually matter and have a widescale impact with people who would better receive your message?

NO

You'd much rather come to an incel forum and proselytize

YOU SEE, YOUR ACTIONS DON'T MATCH YOUR WORDS

Guys like you keep speaking about some social change that you want to happen but you don't really do shit about it, its all talk, you are just wasting your time

Stop being deluded, the fact that you haven't done any of the things I said shows that you don't really believe what you are saying, its a cope

Unless you are actually so fucking stupid that you believe that you becoming an exception will be the "trigger" that sets off the first domino to begin the social change you talk about

Sorry bud, you aren't that important, the world doesn't revolve around you like that, what you want to happen will require time and effort on your part, not you just talking about some dream on an incel forum

That's why it's better to do everything you can to take on responsibility for yourself and the world.

JFL more "grand" scheme nonsense while you actually do nothing

How are you "taking on responsibility for the world" right now?

Are you hearing yourself?

You sound deluded, you aren't doing anything, if you became an exception that doesn't translate into you "taking on responsibility for the world", that would have nothing to do with the world at all

The rest of the world is going to continue on the path it is right now, and nothing you say or do will make a difference, because "the market" determines the value of something, not you or me, and the market is saying that it likes "sexual freedom" and "degeneracy"

So good luck but I'm willing to bet you're going to fail in not only making yourself an exception but in bringing about any change to the world

Not settling for anything less then the idyllic is true masculinity.

That is quite literally a woman's mindset, I can't believe you actually said this

Women are the group that refuses to settle, that's literally "their thing"

Men have always been REALISTS and they make concessions

 

[WarriorScholar]

On the basis of statistics I'm saying it will never happen

Once in my life I threw a coin up in the air and because of the flooring it landed on its side and remained up on its side

Because I pulled this off once I would not be so stupid to assume that I could get it done again, the coin landed near a specific groove at a specific angle after a random toss

I did try again many times, it did not happen again

Just to make my point clear, what you want is never going to happen due to the statistical unlikelihood of it happening

Saying "exceptions exist so I'm going to bet my entire life on me getting lucky" just shows that you have the mindset of a woman, you are too emotional, you aren't being rational. Women can afford to think like this because they are the ones that are pursued, they are the prey not the hunter. The hunter can't lie around hoping that one day his prey is going to just approach him and he gets some once in a lifetime opportunity, a hunter who thinks like this is more likely to starve to death than to get is magical oppurtunity


Imagine saying that your goal is to somehow become an exception to the rule while asserting that other people are in denial

I don't think you know the meaning of the words you use


You know full well you are lying to yourself, else you would never have said "I know you're aware of the exceptions"

An "exception" is the exact opposite of "a decent chance"


They don't matter at all if were being objective, you are just being childish and clinging to a dream you had when you were younger

You can go ahead and waste your life but don't come back here 10 years later to complain as if nobody warned you

You lose the right to complain if you refuse to accept reality and that ruins your life


You are talking a lot of shit for someone who chooses to remain on some obscure forum for losers

Anyone can see how deluded you are but sadly you can't distance yourself enough from the situation to see that yourself

What you are describing REQUIRES OTHER PEOPLE TO TAKE PART

Are you writing any books about this social change you want?

Are you going on any talk shows?

Are you spreading your message in places where it would actually matter and have a widescale impact with people who would better receive your message?

NO

You'd much rather come to an incel forum and proselytize

YOU SEE, YOUR ACTIONS DON'T MATCH YOUR WORDS

Guys like you keep speaking about some social change that you want to happen but you don't really do shit about it, its all talk, you are just wasting your time

Stop being deluded, the fact that you haven't done any of the things I said shows that you don't really believe what you are saying, its a cope

Unless you are actually so fucking stupid that you believe that you becoming an exception will be the "trigger" that sets off the first domino to begin the social change you talk about

Sorry bud, you aren't that important, the world doesn't revolve around you like that, what you want to happen will require time and effort on your part, not you just talking about some dream on an incel forum


JFL more "grand" scheme nonsense while you actually do nothing

How are you "taking on responsibility for the world" right now?

Are you hearing yourself?

You sound deluded, you aren't doing anything, if you became an exception that doesn't translate into you "taking on responsibility for the world", that would have nothing to do with the world at all

The rest of the world is going to continue on the path it is right now, and nothing you say or do will make a difference, because "the market" determines the value of something, not you or me, and the market is saying that it likes "sexual freedom" and "degeneracy"

So good luck but I'm willing to bet you're going to fail in not only making yourself an exception but in bringing about any change to the world


That is quite literally a woman's mindset, I can't believe you actually said this

Women are the group that refuses to settle, that's literally "their thing"

Men have always been REALISTS and they make concessions

So you're giving up because something is improbable. Just as the video in your signature says: "people don't live provisional lives, and they don't die provisional deaths."

Do you honestly think if you're on your death bed, you'll be satisfied with having lived a life cowering behind statistics, which will steadily become irrelevant amidst increasing unpredictability this century, and presuppositions warped by bitter malice from mistreatment; just grabbing a piece of the pie to engage in decadence while the world collapses in on itself? Wouldn't you rather die having done all you can to chase nothing short of the best life, always testing and pushing past your capabilities? Taking up responsibilities that help make the world better, not because of some pseudo-moralistic virtue signal, but because that's how the majority of people become fulfilled and become best able to have the latest innovations available to them and survive catastrophe. The fact that you're typing on this, or any recreational forum for that matter, is proof of your intrinsic need to engage with and contribute to the lives of other people. And you know from your apparent hatred and misery that going about life without seeing any value or potential in it, beyond a civilization of complex biological machines hurdling toward destruction, is a recipe for despairing stagnation; where you're not motivated to do anything as a consequence of the perceived shallowness of all possible futures.

To clarify, I'm not suggesting that you abandon logic and go in blind. In fact you should be thinking and planning out most of your life. What I'm saying is there needs to be a higher purpose in relation to that logical framework. You need to have a transcendent value system and ideal that you're willing to risk everything for, otherwise your life regresses into nihility and becomes a shadow of what it could be in relation to your potential. You cannot avoid risk or difficulty, it will be present for our entire lives. Even if you're selective and careful to the extreme, it can always end in an instant. Furthermore, there is no "decent chance" for anything that's worth doing. So why live like a coward?

You're right in the latter half of your post though, I'm a hypocrite. This is my last post. All my effort will be put into action.

 

[BlkPillPres]

Do you honestly think if you're on your death bed, you'll be satisfied with having lived a life cowering behind statistics

I'll be satisfied having lived a life of pleasure and peace

No stress, just doing what I want to do

Fucking beautiful women, eating tasty food, taking in the sights, etc

Enjoy chasing after your pipe dream of a marriage where you don't get divorced or cheated on

I'd reccommend you become a Muslim and move to an Islamic state if you actually want that shit to pan out, but you are stubborn and delusional so good luck having a successful marriage in a country with western values and laws

You're right in the latter half of your post though, I'm a hypocrite. This is my last post. All my effort will be put into action.

Oh yeah, sure bud, see you in a few months (or tomorrow lol)

 

[highinhibition]

Fucking beautiful women, eating tasty food, taking in the sights

what about reproduction sir?

 

[BlkPillPres]

what about reproduction sir?

Do you really want to bring a child into THIS world?

1. I'm not an egoist, I don't see me adding my genes to the gene pool as some kind of "amazing contribution to the species" that I have to do

2. There's like 8 billion of us on the planet right now (well 8 billion by 2023, its close enough right now), do I really need to add more?, its not like were lacking in people right now, there's enough "useless breeders" around

Overpopulation is actually going to start becoming a problem at some point

3. This is a personal motto for myself since having a daughter is always a possibility:
I'd much rather spend my money fucking other men's daughters, than spend my money raising a daughter to be fucked by other men

 

[Extra-Samsaric]

As long as the whore is a good actress, I don't care about "validation."

Even if the whore isn't a good actress, as long as she stays quiet, follows directions, and doesn't rush me, it will still be a passably good experience for me.

 

[highinhibition]

As long as the whore is a good actress, I don't care about "validation."

Even if the whore isn't a good actress, as long as she stays quiet, follows directions, and doesn't rush me, it will still be a passably good experience for me.

you need to demand it from here though because she does not like to fuck you bcuz you are ugly and she swallowed already 10 dicks this day.

she is gonna exploit you if you are a pussy bitch

 

[Extra-Samsaric]

Overpopulation is actually going to start becoming a problem at some point

Overpopulation became a problem decades, if not centuries ago.

 

[BlkPillPres]

you need to demand it from here though because she does not like to fuck you bcuz you are ugly and she swallowed already 10 dicks this day.

she is gonna exploit you if you are a pussy bitch

I would not bother, because for me its more arousing to see a natural reaction

If she's trying to get into it and "we have chemistry" then good

If not then the looks of disgust and disdain for me on her face are even more arousing

Its a win win in either case for me, because I'm there to fuck, not to be "patronized" or play delusional mental gymnastics games with myself

I find the entire concept of "paying for the girlfriend experience" laughable, because the moment you pay for it you should immediately not be able to immerse yourself in that experience

It takes a high level of delusion, emotional thinking, and mental gymnastics to pull it off, and I can't do that, my mind doesn't work that way

All throughout the date my mind would be telling me - "this is fake, you paid for this, she doesn't like you, you are wasting time eating and talking, just go fuck her already"

 

[highinhibition]

I would not bother, because for me its more arousing to see a natural reaction

If she's trying to get into it and "we have chemistry" then good

If not then the looks of disgust and disdain for me on her face are even more arousing

Its a win win in either case for me, because I'm there to fuck, not to be "patronized" or play delusional mental gymnastics games with myself

I find the entire concept of "paying for the girlfriend experience" laughable, because the moment you pay for it you should immediately not be able to immerse yourself in that experience

It takes a high level of delusion, emotional thinking, and mental gymnastics to pull it off, and I can't do that, my mind doesn't work that way

All throughout the date my mind would be telling me - "this is fake, you paid for this, she doesn't like you, you are wasting time eating and talking, just go fuck her already"

low inhib and T mogs me