Story Had a breakdown last night

[TheSlippwrySeal]

I was lying in bed last night about to fall asleep when the thought occurred to me that I'll probably never have any intimate experiences with a woman. Obviously I knew this for a while now because im 28 and still never kissed a non-relative female, but it really just hit me hard at that moment for some reason. The thought of eventually dying without ever having any of this really shook me. I thought I had fully accepted inceldom already but apparently not. I usually get lost in my copes long enough to not think too much about the reality of it, but I just lost it and really felt like shit. I used to think this would get easier. I really do not need this existential bullshit right now and felt like just giving up. Have you guys ever had that moment where it just hit you, and I mean really hit you?

 

[Gremlincel]

Of course. How'd you react?

 

[BasedGod1]

Yeah of course. Just gotta keep coping.

 

[NotQuiteChadLite]

I was lying in bed last night about to fall asleep when the thought occurred to me that I'll probably never have any intimate experiences with a woman. Obviously I knew this for a while now because im 28 and still never kissed a non-relative female, but it really just hit me hard at that moment for some reason. The thought of eventually dying without ever having any this really shook me. I thought I had fully accepted inceldom already but apparently not. I usually get lost in my copes long enough to not think too much about the reality of it, but I just lost it and really felt like shit. I used to think this would get easier. I really do not need this existential bullshit right now and felt like just giving up. Have you guys ever had that moment where it just hit you, and I mean really hit you?

Are you white or ethnic?

 

[Anger]

I am also about to have a mental breakdown right now

 

[TheSlippwrySeal]

Of course. How'd you react?

I thought if it was better to just be dead. I never had any intentions to actually rope at that moment, but felt defeated. I went for a 1 a.m. walk.

Are you white or ethnic?

Ethnic

 

[Gremlincel]

I thought if it was better to just be dead. I never had any intentions to actually rope at that moment, but felt defeated. I went for a 1 a.m. walk.

Damn, that's not a bad way to handle it, haha.
I suppose I was thinking more of a panic attack type thing, which sometimes I get into, when it 'hits me hard'. Just, anxiety and stress off the charts, can't sit still, crying with rage and hopeless, punching things, trying not to scream my head off.. going full autismo, y'know?

 

[TheSlippwrySeal]

Damn, that's not a bad way to handle it, haha.
I suppose I was thinking more of a panic attack type thing, which sometimes I get into, when it 'hits me hard'. Just, anxiety and stress off the charts, can't sit still, crying with rage and hopeless, punching things, trying not to scream my head off.. going full autismo, y'know?

Oh, it was a panic attack all right. I felt like I couldn't breathe and the room was closing in on me. Usually when I'm stressed I'll rage and punch the wall or something but this was more of an energy draining thing.

 

[Erenor]

At 28 I would try escorts tbh, or if you're not comfortable with this, try massages, "professional cuddlers" or something of that sort, just to help you cope and don't go off the deep end

 

[boyjenius]

26 and it the same non-kissed boat as you...

i'm trying to figure things out... there has to be hope for me/us somewhere, somehow

i remain hopeful. lots of people in this world - someone has to give in...

 

[4700euros]

I remember my first mind shattering moment.

I was in tears...then depressed...like a zombie or whatever.

I went to bed to sleep each time because the best thing was to shutdown.

 

[IHateMySelf]

Yes. Sometimes i see my life and i just wan to kill myself.