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My problem in life was my emotions and temperamental working patterns .
I do things when I feel like doing which is never .
I have became from being the first of my class to a lonely loser just because iam not able to understand that my temper or mood to work is absent .
I couldn't push myself I didn't know how to do it I didn't have the tools to create the inner conflict between my ideology and imagination of the future and my current feelings and mood .
So I failed . While all the stupid fellow men i know made it in life, not because they were smarter I have a statistical evidence that I was out of their iq league, because I only did stuff when I felt like to doing .
I understood this flaw in my character in my 30s and when I try to get out of the s******* I've been in for years I found it to be a very difficult task .
not because of the work I have to do because people don't believe in me anymore they are seeing me as an obstacle if I try to do something .
I'm amazed about how people get abusive when someone is in the bottom of society when you don't have no money have no friends have nothing they will abuse me without mercy just so they can feel different and assure their selfs that they are not me by deassociating themselves from me .
A top man have reached the surface of the shthole just because I did only work when I feel like it lols sadly funny, it's the only reason for my failure
Not my autism or anxiety , because even with those i could be at least a financially dependent person .
I do things when I feel like doing which is never .
I have became from being the first of my class to a lonely loser just because iam not able to understand that my temper or mood to work is absent .
I couldn't push myself I didn't know how to do it I didn't have the tools to create the inner conflict between my ideology and imagination of the future and my current feelings and mood .
So I failed . While all the stupid fellow men i know made it in life, not because they were smarter I have a statistical evidence that I was out of their iq league, because I only did stuff when I felt like to doing .
I understood this flaw in my character in my 30s and when I try to get out of the s******* I've been in for years I found it to be a very difficult task .
not because of the work I have to do because people don't believe in me anymore they are seeing me as an obstacle if I try to do something .
I'm amazed about how people get abusive when someone is in the bottom of society when you don't have no money have no friends have nothing they will abuse me without mercy just so they can feel different and assure their selfs that they are not me by deassociating themselves from me .
A top man have reached the surface of the shthole just because I did only work when I feel like it lols sadly funny, it's the only reason for my failure
Not my autism or anxiety , because even with those i could be at least a financially dependent person .
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