I can't even enjoy masturbating really, I do it more so to get rid of the loneliness when I'm feeling bad. Falling back asleep feels better than an orgasm, and trying to get out of bad feels worse than starving myself for a day. I get no satisfaction or joy out of anything in life, except one single thing. I hate going to bed at night, but falling back asleep when I'm sleepy, when I wake up from my alarm is the only pleasure that I feel. It's impossible to get up.
