the theory is solid love is not real, women are whores but I think that I can cope better than others here because I am more stupid than them. Everybody copes differently, and some people feel just so betrayed by the false promises that they cannot function anymore. They still function better than me, they can go about their lifes but there is this genuinity those guys have here, That even though they manage to live a normal life. Having some hygiene, going to university or working, practicing sports or whatever. They do all of these things, they actually do stuff. And even though I claim myself to be blackpilled that I have found solutions, say that I will go to prostitutes for the rest of my life and do X,Y, Z too in order to reach some kind of peace, in the end I still dont do anything except rotting and wasting money. I think those people here who can funtion but also having suicidal thoughts are the ones who are most in touch with reality here. No it's not that they are whining or doing cringey stuff, the opposite they are quite lighthearted and can joke about their existencce, they even try to looksmaxxx still and have some hope left. But at the same time those are the one who also are most serious about suicide. They see themselves as unimportant and disposeable which they indeed are, on one day they can make jokes and on the next day they are gone. Maybe some of them will ascend also and in that case they will leave in silence, those are the most based users here. Of course as they grow older and if they are still alone and somehow did not kill themselves they will also be the ones who can cope the best in their situation. Compared to them I am not even human, I am really selfish but I cannot change that about myself. I mean I can talk all I want, and pretend to have empathy for others as much as I want, in the end I wont have the balls to kill myself unlike the others. I am just a leeching, worthless bum who is always dependant on others but even if the help does not come I am someone who would rather create more problems for others and myself instead of finding a long term solution. I am really pathetic compared to most users here but it's not like anything is going to change about it, it was rather just an observation I made where I pitty mself again.
