Everywhere i go, no matter what i do or how i act. nobody acknowledges my existence. I mean sure the cashiers will speak to me but it's like speaking to NPC, you what there are gonna say, It's the same thing, "credit card or debit" "would like that in bag", It's not a real conversation. There aren't really acknowledging you or your existence, you leave the store and your permanently out of their mind forever, They acknowledge your body of flesh and bone but not you the person and soul behind that body.
The worst i felt about this was when i almost commited suicide, i was clearly in distress in public place and literally no one cared. Everyone passed me while i had tears running down my eyes, It was like was ghost because they would even look in my general direction but it's like they wouldn't even see me, at my lowest minutes away from death and nobody cared. I didn't exist, i never did. Just another NPC in someone elses game, that character you walk by thousands of times by never seem to notice. I hate this, I hate all of it. I wish i existed
The best i get is here, people acknowledging this alter-ego, Thanks guys i appreciate it but i can't get too personal. After all there are several lurkers looking to harm people like us. so best to lay low and not reveal anything too personal about myself. Sometimes even the negative attention from ITfags feels like a boost, It's like hey i do exist my problems are real even if those retards would never get it, at least it's out there.
The worst i felt about this was when i almost commited suicide, i was clearly in distress in public place and literally no one cared. Everyone passed me while i had tears running down my eyes, It was like was ghost because they would even look in my general direction but it's like they wouldn't even see me, at my lowest minutes away from death and nobody cared. I didn't exist, i never did. Just another NPC in someone elses game, that character you walk by thousands of times by never seem to notice. I hate this, I hate all of it. I wish i existed
The best i get is here, people acknowledging this alter-ego, Thanks guys i appreciate it but i can't get too personal. After all there are several lurkers looking to harm people like us. so best to lay low and not reveal anything too personal about myself. Sometimes even the negative attention from ITfags feels like a boost, It's like hey i do exist my problems are real even if those retards would never get it, at least it's out there.
