I feel you brother. It's like living life in the backseat, I feel like I'm just always watching everyone else go on to live their life, and I'm always sitting here just stuck in this eternal adolescence. For fuck's sake, I'm 35 and I feel like I haven't matured one second since I turned 19 or some shit. I did all the the life milestones I could reach without the help of someone else - I got a degree, I got a career, and you know what? Those are the shitty parts. Nobody wants to spend their life wageslaving. I never found out what the good side is, it's like I only get the shit part of the shit sandwich. All shit, no sandwich. I think I'm abusing this metaphor too far.
The thing is, what I've learned about life is that it's always a struggle. It's supposed to be about pain and pleasure, you work and you're rewarded, but that deal has just turned to ash. It isn't even just about foids, it's about the shitty fucking economy caused by shitty fucking rich people fucking us all over. It feels like our entire culture has become so self-obsessed and hateful that it's almost impossible to find a shred of joy and actually thrive. Everything just feels wrong and meaningless.
Anyways, I guess that's enough bitching. Take care, friend.
