Venting Everything about me is so autistic

[Deleted member 11159]

I placed a camera about 10 feet away from me and I recorded myself for a minute and holy shit I did not realize how bad things were. I don't look like i'm from this planet at all. My legs wobble when I move and I cannot walk in a straight line AND I walk way too fucking fast. My shoulders look incredibly stiff and my arms are stuck to me at all times. I barely ever blink. My face makes me look like I want to kill someone yet people treat me as a joke. Up until the age of 15 I used to mouthbreath during the day and I don't even want to begin to imagine how retarded that must've looked. Keep in mind all this was when I knew I was recording myself so I probably subconsciously tried to act more normal than usual.

I haven't been diagnosed with autism so i'm not going to call myself an autist but I sure as fuck deserve my autismbux for involuntarily pretending to be autistic.

 

[taurazi]

Having reflective surfaces/mirrors in stores shouldn't be allowed. I was at a checkout a while back and an entire wall near the checkout was a mirror. Just standing in line with my incel supplies trying to avoid looking at my subhuman face and gtfo

 

[muharremabi]

I went through the similar things. I couldn't live a social life until I was 16. I feel as if I lived up to 15 years without my consciousness.
Theres no single good thing about my life or a memory. When something bad happens in your childhood, this life becomes your dungeon and nothing changes.

 

[inceldaygamer_]

I used to be like this back when I was 18. Now I am 30 I have learnt more relaxed body language but NPCs still notice me when there are fewer people about.

 

[Deleted member 11159]

Having reflective surfaces/mirrors in stores shouldn't be allowed. I was at a checkout a while back and an entire wall near the checkout was a mirror. Just standing in line with my incel supplies trying to avoid looking at my subhuman face and gtfo

I feel like I look 10 times uglier when I see my reflection outside of my house

 

[azakhan]

I feel like I look 10 times uglier when I see my reflection outside of my house

Same, I can't even look at it. And smartphone cameras are the worst, I already said it in thread I made yesterday but talking on Skype is pure hell for me. I can't believe how ugly and unphotogenic I am in reality.

 

[Feces]

 

[muharremabi]

Same, I can't even look at it. And smartphone cameras are the worst, I already said it in thread I made yesterday but talking on Skype is pure hell for me. I can't believe how ugly and unphotogenic I am in reality.

Yeah, lighting difference. It exposes all my subhuman scars from childhood.

 

[Mystic]

I sure as fuck deserve my autismbux for involuntarily pretending to be autistic.

 

[GreaseCel]

I've filmed myself like that before. It's never fun.

 

[SupremeG]

I was also filmed by a psychologist while I was role playing life situations. It was mega suifuel to watch my autistic being and my soft, insecure voice. Never do that again.