Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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Seriously, I thinking I might have actual brain damage, literal actual brain damage from all the years of rotting in bed doing nothing, depression or from the 2 years when I was getting blackout drunk every day.
And this supposed brain damage affects my entire life. From small things to big things. From actually doing anything other than rotting in bed watching sitcoms I've watched 1000 times before, to merely functioning like a normal human being.
Short backstory: I fucking hate League of Legends, I am so bad most of the time that I'm making this thread talking about brain damage. For more than a month now I've been installing it, playing for a few hours, then getting so enraged or maybe simply questioning why I'm playing this fucking game, that I uninstall it. And I swear to myself I won't install it again. And then I do the next day. Happened more than 30 times now every day. I did the same shit last year but somehow I quit till I started again this year. Fuck, I even contacted Riot and asked the to delete my account. Caved in and asked them to reverse it. And then I installed the game, played like a potato and got enraged and then uninstalled it again. This time it will last. I hope.
Anyway, there's something wrong with me. I played a few champions that were really easy so sometimes I do well and even have a decent winrate in ranked, but when I play shit that isn't as easy as possible and champions that require actual clicking I play like a brain damaged person. I suspected maybe it's my shitty wireless mouse and the fact that I'm playing in bed that's causing me to suck so much, but then I took my laptop to a desk and tried out a wired mouse, I got my ass handed to me still.
There's something wrong with me, I can't pinpoint it. Reactions, patience, coordination, dexterity, processing what's happening in real time, processing multiple things happening - I'm impaired at multiple of these. I misclick constantly and react slowly and do things that I know are mistakes but I keep doing them. And when fighting fair in 1v1 situations I always die. It's like my brain lags at times. I can't process information fast enough or when it's too much information I can't even see what's happening I just focus on myself. I can't pinpoint it really, there's too much shit wrong with me.
I probably have more than a thousand hours in this game over the years, if not more. I only seem to do well on champions that are braindead, like Veigar, but even then I suck. I make such basics mistakes when controlling my character or aiming shit that you'd think I never played this game in my life.
And this supposed brain damage affects my entire life. From small things to big things. From actually doing anything other than rotting in bed watching sitcoms I've watched 1000 times before, to merely functioning like a normal human being.
Short backstory: I fucking hate League of Legends, I am so bad most of the time that I'm making this thread talking about brain damage. For more than a month now I've been installing it, playing for a few hours, then getting so enraged or maybe simply questioning why I'm playing this fucking game, that I uninstall it. And I swear to myself I won't install it again. And then I do the next day. Happened more than 30 times now every day. I did the same shit last year but somehow I quit till I started again this year. Fuck, I even contacted Riot and asked the to delete my account. Caved in and asked them to reverse it. And then I installed the game, played like a potato and got enraged and then uninstalled it again. This time it will last. I hope.
Anyway, there's something wrong with me. I played a few champions that were really easy so sometimes I do well and even have a decent winrate in ranked, but when I play shit that isn't as easy as possible and champions that require actual clicking I play like a brain damaged person. I suspected maybe it's my shitty wireless mouse and the fact that I'm playing in bed that's causing me to suck so much, but then I took my laptop to a desk and tried out a wired mouse, I got my ass handed to me still.
There's something wrong with me, I can't pinpoint it. Reactions, patience, coordination, dexterity, processing what's happening in real time, processing multiple things happening - I'm impaired at multiple of these. I misclick constantly and react slowly and do things that I know are mistakes but I keep doing them. And when fighting fair in 1v1 situations I always die. It's like my brain lags at times. I can't process information fast enough or when it's too much information I can't even see what's happening I just focus on myself. I can't pinpoint it really, there's too much shit wrong with me.
I probably have more than a thousand hours in this game over the years, if not more. I only seem to do well on champions that are braindead, like Veigar, but even then I suck. I make such basics mistakes when controlling my character or aiming shit that you'd think I never played this game in my life.
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