Retraux
Greycel
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- Jul 9, 2024
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It's a self-evident truth that our parents are ultimately at fault for the state of our lives. From their shit genetics, to their incompetent or, for some among us, abusive upbringing, we are ultimately products of the people who created us. The idea that we are responsible for where we end up is basically a denial of causality, and we usually hear it from our parents themselves, typically as a cope so they can protect their fragile egos.
A lot of us probably cope with daydreaming about inflicting violence, either on ourselves or others. I know at this point some of you will accuse me of fedposting. I'm not; I'm not advocating anyone do anything, I'm just being honest about my thoughts and want to see who relates. Anyway, alongside hurting people happier than me, I often fantasize about murder-suiciding my parents to the punish them for the crime of throwing me into the world and failing to set me up for success. My usual fantasy is either stabbing them or shooting them in such a way that they have time to watch me blow my brains in front of them before they bleed out just so they suffer as much as possible before they die. My resentment for them is enormous to the point where I can't say I love them; I just have some lizard-brained acclimation and attachment.
I know this is all pretty grim but I've having a large amount of suicidal and violent thoughts lately, more than any other types of thoughts in fact, and I need to vent. It's to the point where it's distracting me from obligations. I'll be in the middle of work or a lecture and slip into daydreaming about perpetrating murder and suicide. I usually consume gore content to wind down when I get to into it.
Anyone else relate? What are everyone's thoughts on your parents and the role they play in your lot?
A lot of us probably cope with daydreaming about inflicting violence, either on ourselves or others. I know at this point some of you will accuse me of fedposting. I'm not; I'm not advocating anyone do anything, I'm just being honest about my thoughts and want to see who relates. Anyway, alongside hurting people happier than me, I often fantasize about murder-suiciding my parents to the punish them for the crime of throwing me into the world and failing to set me up for success. My usual fantasy is either stabbing them or shooting them in such a way that they have time to watch me blow my brains in front of them before they bleed out just so they suffer as much as possible before they die. My resentment for them is enormous to the point where I can't say I love them; I just have some lizard-brained acclimation and attachment.
I know this is all pretty grim but I've having a large amount of suicidal and violent thoughts lately, more than any other types of thoughts in fact, and I need to vent. It's to the point where it's distracting me from obligations. I'll be in the middle of work or a lecture and slip into daydreaming about perpetrating murder and suicide. I usually consume gore content to wind down when I get to into it.
Anyone else relate? What are everyone's thoughts on your parents and the role they play in your lot?