Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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Ohh boy, sometimes I forget to block the realizations of just how fucked I am and it gets to me.
These kinds of episodes can trigger days or weeks of turbo depression. And that's on top of my everyday routine depression.
Wasted my youth, a few years left and I'm 30, useless degree, working 9 hour days and I'm still broke and living with my parents, fucked health, fucked eyesight, no skills whatsoever, no interests or hobbies, no experience with women, not even a kiss, no social circle so no way to get better jobs through connections or some shit, parents are getting very old, years of alcoholism have me dreading seeing people from my past or walking on the street and seeing somebody I used to know that would recognize me, years of basically LDARing made be even more of a sperg, I'm pretty sure I'm bipolar, avoidant personality disorder. Shit, that's just off the top of my head.
These kinds of episodes can trigger days or weeks of turbo depression. And that's on top of my everyday routine depression.
Wasted my youth, a few years left and I'm 30, useless degree, working 9 hour days and I'm still broke and living with my parents, fucked health, fucked eyesight, no skills whatsoever, no interests or hobbies, no experience with women, not even a kiss, no social circle so no way to get better jobs through connections or some shit, parents are getting very old, years of alcoholism have me dreading seeing people from my past or walking on the street and seeing somebody I used to know that would recognize me, years of basically LDARing made be even more of a sperg, I'm pretty sure I'm bipolar, avoidant personality disorder. Shit, that's just off the top of my head.