I have severe OCD and autism which I guess gives my OCD weird thoughts to panic over, anyways here's some dumb shit I regularly have panic attacks over
>The sensation of my mind being trapped inside my skull, this one is massive, I'm constantly aware of the sensation of my skull around my mind 24/7 and it never goes away, the panic attacks over it are excruciating and I liken it to waking up trapped in a coffin
>Standing in any open space without any wall or structure next to me, like fields but even just between shelves at a grocery store, I constantly bump into people and knock shit over because of this, I walk super close to walls in public and instantly panic when walking into a place that's too open
>The fact that other people are doing different things with their bodies and looking at different things to what I'm looking at in any given moment, like the fact that I'll be walking and someone is sitting down and someone is driving and someone else is in a plane really disturbs me for some reason, I've thought myself into lots of crippling panic attacks about this, sometimes multiple times a day, I like her intrusive thoughts about immediately ending up in their bodies and it's pretty disorienting
>Solipsism, basically the fact that I can only ever experience my own mind and will absolutely never experience anything else outside myself, this triggers the skull sensation from my first post and they both combine to create this absolute most horrifying sense of being hopelessly eternally trapped with no escape
>Being near or just looking at huge structures like tall buildings, the sky, big hills in the distance or even the moon, even just thinking about them makes me tense up and contort my face in discomfort, every day I thank my lucky stars I live in a small town, still happens to me daily though
When I see all this written down I realise how fucked I really am, not only am I sub5 but my brain tortures me 24/7 with this shit as well
>The sensation of my mind being trapped inside my skull, this one is massive, I'm constantly aware of the sensation of my skull around my mind 24/7 and it never goes away, the panic attacks over it are excruciating and I liken it to waking up trapped in a coffin
>Standing in any open space without any wall or structure next to me, like fields but even just between shelves at a grocery store, I constantly bump into people and knock shit over because of this, I walk super close to walls in public and instantly panic when walking into a place that's too open
>The fact that other people are doing different things with their bodies and looking at different things to what I'm looking at in any given moment, like the fact that I'll be walking and someone is sitting down and someone is driving and someone else is in a plane really disturbs me for some reason, I've thought myself into lots of crippling panic attacks about this, sometimes multiple times a day, I like her intrusive thoughts about immediately ending up in their bodies and it's pretty disorienting
>Solipsism, basically the fact that I can only ever experience my own mind and will absolutely never experience anything else outside myself, this triggers the skull sensation from my first post and they both combine to create this absolute most horrifying sense of being hopelessly eternally trapped with no escape
>Being near or just looking at huge structures like tall buildings, the sky, big hills in the distance or even the moon, even just thinking about them makes me tense up and contort my face in discomfort, every day I thank my lucky stars I live in a small town, still happens to me daily though
When I see all this written down I realise how fucked I really am, not only am I sub5 but my brain tortures me 24/7 with this shit as well
