SuicideFuel Do you ever get depressed thinking about what could've been?

[misanthropicmemes2]

All the things you would've done and all the friends and girls you would've talked to in your high-school years instead of being a social pariah? All the events, concerts, parties etc. and memories you could've made? Being the person you always dreamt of bring in your prime years? When I fantasize about what could've been, its almost like a mythical, and far far away reality in my mind that shows how sorrowful life really is for us trucels. Every since as young as like 8 I always wished my soul could be reborn into an actual human who can enjoy life, not this autistic mutant subhuman. Thinking about it makes me wanna cry mang I envy normalfags TO AN INFINITE DEGREE

 

[misanthropicmemes2]

I would've been the funniest nigga in hs in an alternate reality fr fr no cap

 

[drunken_sailor2500]

That’s why I cope with maladaptive daydreaming, listening to music to create my own made up soundtrack for my life while imagining fake scenarios in my head where I am good looking and women desire me.

 

[misanthropicmemes2]

That’s why I cope with maladaptive daydreaming, listening to music to create my own made up soundtrack for my life while imagining fake scenarios in my head where I am good looking and women desire me.

Based delusionmaxxer I wanna do similar things with lucid dreaming. Don't such fantasies give you a "bittersweet" and almost eerily sad feeling too?

 

[misanthropicmemes2]

That’s why I cope with maladaptive daydreaming, listening to music to create my own made up soundtrack for my life while imagining fake scenarios in my head where I am good looking and women desire me.

Sad that we even have to do shit like this lol

 

[drunken_sailor2500]

Based delusionmaxxer I wanna do similar things with lucid dreaming. Don't such fantasies give you a "bittersweet" and almost eerily sad feeling too?

Yeah, especially when thinking of girls who led me on and made me think I had a chance but rejected me. Bluepilled love destroys one’s soul. If the man is sub5 he will become blackpilled, if not he will become redpilled. If he’s Chad he doesn’t know what heartbreak is to begin with.

 

[drunken_sailor2500]

Sad that we even have to do shit like this lol

And even more sad that our imaginations become so much stronger from it to the point where we know damn well we would enjoy what normies have more than normies themselves. They don’t need to daydream so they take what they have for granted without a thought in their heads like mindless npcs. Lucky bastards

 

[misanthropicmemes2]

And even more sad that our imaginations become so much stronger from it to the point where we know damn well we would enjoy what normies have more than normies themselves. They don’t need to daydream so they take what they have for granted without a thought in their heads like mindless npcs. Lucky bastards

I hate normies soooo much half of these niggas are like 10x dumber than most people on this forum yet they get all of these social luxuries we'll never come close to having because of their better physical and hyper nt genetics

 

[misanthropicmemes2]

Yeah, especially when thinking of girls who led me on and made me think I had a chance but rejected me. Bluepilled love destroys one’s soul. If the man is sub5 he will become blackpilled, if not he will become redpilled. If he’s Chad he doesn’t know what heartbreak is to begin with.

I hate it here

 

[drunken_sailor2500]

I hate normies soooo much half of these niggas are like 10x dumber than most people on this forum yet they get all of these social luxuries we'll never come close to having because of their better physical and hyper nt genetics

NonNT is a brutal pill, imagine being smarter than normies but your brain still betrays you by acting retarded when the time comes to socialize

 

[TimeMachineOrLDAR]

I hate normies soooo much half of these niggas are like 10x dumber than most people on this forum yet they get all of these social luxuries we'll never come close to having because of their better physical and hyper nt genetics

NonNT is a brutal pill, imagine being smarter than normies but your brain still betrays you by acting retarded when the time comes to socialize

 

[Taboo Buster]

All of us have led unique lives and have interesting stories to tell. I cope by writing, even if in the end no one ever reads my stuff. I figure when the day comes that they discover my cold corpse, someone will be tasked to go through my belongings and come across what I've written,
And if not, I can dream, can't I?

 

[PvZcel]

I am wasted potential. I knew my timetables at 6, learned high school algebra at 10, I got into Mensa at 16, but barely passed high school bc of depression and abuse. I had the brains to do great things and solve problems. Had I been born in a supportive and stable family, I could go on to do great things and get a very well paying job but no, I had to be born in a dysfunctional family and get screamed at and smacked if I did something the tiniest bit wrong. Now I’m a depressed wageslave who has thought about taking my life many times.

 

[TooSomething]

Every damn day.

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

I am wasted potential. I knew my timetables at 6, learned high school algebra at 10, I got into Mensa at 16, but barely passed high school bc of depression and abuse. I had the brains to do great things and solve problems. Had I been born in a supportive and stable family, I could go on to do great things and get a very well paying job but no, I had to be born in a dysfunctional family and get screamed at and smacked if I did something the tiniest bit wrong. Now I’m a depressed wageslave who has thought about taking my life many times.

Brutal man. And ofc your sister didn't get any of that because of little princess syndrome as always. Fucking clown world.

 

[TheHungariancel]

All of us have led unique lives and have interesting stories to tell.

Yeah my life is unique but not in a good way and it's everything but interesting.

I am wasted potential. I knew my timetables at 6, learned high school algebra at 10, I got into Mensa at 16, but barely passed high school bc of depression and abuse. I had the brains to do great things and solve problems. Had I been born in a supportive and stable family, I could go on to do great things and get a very well paying job but no, I had to be born in a dysfunctional family and get screamed at and smacked if I did something the tiniest bit wrong. Now I’m a depressed wageslave who has thought about taking my life many times.

If it's any consolation for you, I come from a stable and supportive family but I still managed to become a massive failure. Dropped out of university, now I'm back in university after NEETing for more than a year and failing miserably again. Am also a wageslave.

 

[GigaL0ser]

I think about that everyday, and realizing how younger me was so enthusiastic and felt excited for his upcoming “teen years” makes me always depressed. Now I’m rotting in my room, instead of enjoying my life and creating memories.
It’s also already to late to change something.

 

[Erenincel]

I'm also severely depressed and autistic, from a dysfunctional family where my sister was favored. Also wageslave. Existence is becoming more and more of a pain. If this continues, I'll just go to the ER and that's it.

 

[SnakeCel]

All the things you would've done and all the friends and girls you would've talked to in your high-school years instead of being a social pariah? All the events, concerts, parties etc. and memories you could've made? Being the person you always dreamt of bring in your prime years? When I fantasize about what could've been, its almost like a mythical, and far far away reality in my mind that shows how sorrowful life really is for us trucels. Every since as young as like 8 I always wished my soul could be reborn into an actual human who can enjoy life, not this autistic mutant subhuman. Thinking about it makes me wanna cry mang I envy normalfags TO AN INFINITE DEGREE

Mostly I just wish people treated me better. Maybe in another life that could have happened.

 

[Animecel2D]

It is over

 

[The Notorious SLAV]

Yes, every day. For me, the big one was what would've happened if I picked another high school, as the other high school I was considering as a teen actually had girls there, but instead I went to an all-boys one and had basically no contact or interaction with non-related girls and women for four whole years. I know that I would've always just ended up as an incel since I'd ultimately still be me, but still, the possibility that I somehow might not have been is brutal to think about.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Yes

Chasing misprinted lies and facing the path of time

 

[Emba]

Not really. As far as shitty life's go, mines been pretty good. I never starved for long. Never froze to death - came close a fee times. But my winter bum skills were up to the task.

Sure I could have did this, or that...

But I did the best I could with the shitty hand I was dealt. It could have been far worse for me.

I won't talk about specifics.

But I got Lucky

 

[Caichan]

All the things you would've done and all the friends and girls you would've talked to in your high-school years instead of being a social pariah? All the events, concerts, parties etc. and memories you could've made? Being the person you always dreamt of bring in your prime years? When I fantasize about what could've been, its almost like a mythical, and far far away reality in my mind that shows how sorrowful life really is for us trucels. Ever since as young as like 8 I always wished my soul could be reborn into an actual human who can enjoy life, not this autistic mutant subhuman. Thinking about it makes me wanna cry mang I envy normalfags TO AN INFINITE DEGREE

i just get mad

 

[HypergamousPopcorn4]

All the things you would've done and all the friends and girls you would've talked to in your high-school years instead of being a social pariah? All the events, concerts, parties etc. and memories you could've made? Being the person you always dreamt of bring in your prime years? When I fantasize about what could've been, its almost like a mythical, and far far away reality in my mind that shows how sorrowful life really is for us trucels. Every since as young as like 8 I always wished my soul could be reborn into an actual human who can enjoy life, not this autistic mutant subhuman. Thinking about it makes me wanna cry mang I envy normalfags TO AN INFINITE DEGREE

why am i lowkey tearing up

 

[TheNextElliotRodger]

Yeah, but moreso if I'd made the right financial decisions. After a certain age, you sort of become apathetic to it. I've gotten to the point that I'm alone, but not lonely.

 

[Cuckoja]

I am wasted potential. I knew my timetables at 6, learned high school algebra at 10, I got into Mensa at 16, but barely passed high school bc of depression and abuse. I had the brains to do great things and solve problems. Had I been born in a supportive and stable family, I could go on to do great things and get a very well paying job but no, I had to be born in a dysfunctional family and get screamed at and smacked if I did something the tiniest bit wrong. Now I’m a depressed wageslave who has thought about taking my life many times.

Brutal. Im average iq, still feel similar. If i was born in normal family, at least in other fields i wouldnt lag so much behind.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

During my first year of being blackpilled yes, now I just get depressed about how I'm forced to end my life

 

[NearestNeighbor]

YES, YES, FUCK YES
I DESERVED BETTER, EVERY DAY IS A CURSE BECAUSE THIS WORLD IS NOT FAIR

 

[superpsycho]

yes.

i spend a lot of time daydreaming about it.

 

[psycho123]

Every damn day.

i spend a lot of time daydreaming about it.

 

[AdolfRizzler]

yes, probably almost every day

 

[alwaysIndoors]

That’s why I cope with maladaptive daydreaming, listening to music to create my own made up soundtrack for my life while imagining fake scenarios in my head where I am good looking and women desire me.

Every night as I lie awake waiting for sleep to take me, I resume this made up scenario of being in love with a foid.

I continue/create the story line up until the point that I fall asleep. Then the next night I continue the story from where I left off.

Ironically, I feel a monotone sleepyness all throughout the day, and when it's time to go to bed I get really excited to contine this exciting story

 

[alwaysIndoors]

Do you ever get depressed thinking about what could've been?​

As I get older, I do feel this despair intensifying.

When I was in high school I tricked myself into not caring. I convinced myself that while all those normies were out partying and I was studying at home it would eventually pay off when I was rich and they was poor due to their bad habits.

Unfortunately i didn't pan out like this even in the slightest. Most of them also ended up gettting accepted into some jewniversity and will probably end up with equally if not better paying jobs

 

[DCI Gene Hunt]

Yes, often.

I deserved to experience a secret relationship with that hot teacher at school. DENIED!

I deserved to experience a May to December relationship with a white-collar MILF when I was an office junior. DENIED!

I deserved to breed a blonde Amazon. DENIED!

I deserved to know the joy of being in the delivery room with said blonde Amazon and holding my newborn child knowing I have passed on my genes since they are worthy of being passed on. DENIED.

I deserved to buy a house. DENIED.

You get the idea. Rant over.