I'm an oldcel in my mid-30s now, and life is just really tiring, lonely, and boring most of the time.
Honestly, I failed at life. It's all because of the circumstances that I was born with, my family, and the modern systems.
The fact is that this world is only for the young, the rich, and the beautiful.
It's not for someone like me. Honestly, I only have two years maximum left, more like 14 months and then it's when my life nears it's end from rope.
This world has caused me so much suffering along with the circumstances of both my birth and my life...
I can't live much longer without a girlfriend so I'll end it to escape if my life doesn't turn around. And the fact is, that for someone my age that's also an incel, I'll probably never have any luck in my life.
Already, my continued life in this world gives almost no benefits or joy or pleasures. My existence enriches the people who already have everything, contributes to the system that benefits others, and what do I get from it? An absolutely lonely miserable life of suffering and torture...
That's why everyday, I imagine roping and being at peace. I have no place in this world and my likely future is dying alone from a nembutal overdose.
At my age, I'll never recover from the loss, suffering, tragedy, and I have had too much negative happen in the last several years but all my life.
I'm feeling like ending my life is probably the only solution to bring an end to the torture.
Maybe I'll continue living until age 39 but maybe I won't. All I know is that I won't be becoming a meme which means that no matter what, I'll kill myself beyond any doubt or delay if I reach age 39.
The longest that I'll continue living is another 60 months with the minimum being 14 months.
Honestly, I failed at life. It's all because of the circumstances that I was born with, my family, and the modern systems.
The fact is that this world is only for the young, the rich, and the beautiful.
It's not for someone like me. Honestly, I only have two years maximum left, more like 14 months and then it's when my life nears it's end from rope.
This world has caused me so much suffering along with the circumstances of both my birth and my life...
I can't live much longer without a girlfriend so I'll end it to escape if my life doesn't turn around. And the fact is, that for someone my age that's also an incel, I'll probably never have any luck in my life.
Already, my continued life in this world gives almost no benefits or joy or pleasures. My existence enriches the people who already have everything, contributes to the system that benefits others, and what do I get from it? An absolutely lonely miserable life of suffering and torture...
That's why everyday, I imagine roping and being at peace. I have no place in this world and my likely future is dying alone from a nembutal overdose.
At my age, I'll never recover from the loss, suffering, tragedy, and I have had too much negative happen in the last several years but all my life.
I'm feeling like ending my life is probably the only solution to bring an end to the torture.
Maybe I'll continue living until age 39 but maybe I won't. All I know is that I won't be becoming a meme which means that no matter what, I'll kill myself beyond any doubt or delay if I reach age 39.
The longest that I'll continue living is another 60 months with the minimum being 14 months.
