I discovered blackpill/incel forums soon after I turned 16.
Before that time I didn’t really think much about girls/relationships or anything of the sort. I knew that it wasn’t something for me cause I was different from everyone else. I knew that no Matter how hard I had tried to fit in, it never worked. It was like this during middle and earlier high school years.
In elementary school I had close friends and they had relationships with girls and held hands/kissed them but I did nothing.
I knew something was wrong but didn’t exactly know whether it was me or them.
Looking back at my life it makes perfect sense I ended up finding about these kinds of places.