Serious There's zero point posting here... and why the hell can't I have fun anymore?

[MajorThomas666]

The bluepilled days in HS and early college mogs my life today. I envy my former years, the regimen and the care free life is long gone.

I remember when I could fall 50' down a cliff for a HS video (yes, it was for a history class) and get back up like nothing happened, but now I have trouble walking long distances and I'm not even fat.

Shit sucks.

Life should be fun. Why can't I have fun anymore? If I can't find a family, at least give me that care free teenage mindset with a posse where we can blow shit up and stuff.

I remember seeing my friend two years ago and I wanted to blow up shit, but he refused, as if doing it brought him back to HS, which meant he was immature.

I'm just fucking bored and poor.

 

[toijweoiwjdoi]

At least we have this forum

 

[cursed]

despite trying i too can't have fun myself. I tried gaming i have all the gear for it bought games that i haven't played a complete hour. its no fun. idk how people cope with games i can't. i can't have fun. the only fun i have is talking when people give me the time of day and i'm not interrupted. people usually think i'm smart. but how can i be smart if i'm in the situation i'm in right now? when they give me ears i probably decompartmentalize too hard they get scared.

 

[captchawaffen]

but now I have trouble walking long distances and I'm not even fat.

Me too

 

[MajorThomas666]

despite trying i too can't have fun myself. I tried gaming i have all the gear for it bought games that i haven't played a complete hour. its no fun. idk how people cope with games i can't. i can't have fun. the only fun i have is talking when people give me the time of day and i'm not interrupted. people usually think i'm smart. but how can i be smart if i'm in the situation i'm in right now? when they give me ears i probably decompartmentalize too hard they get scared.

Idk. Nobody wants to listen to me though. I guess that's part of being an NDcel. Like I'm funny and people always thought I was funny, but it was always a mask. If I'm serious and want to talk about ahit, it's as if I don't exist. I'm observed as if a caged animal. They'll ignore me and walk away, like I'm some fucking druggie.

I think I'm weirder then I think I am, or perhaps it's just that they can't relate or they grew up, or they don't find any security in me... maybe that's it. There's no advantage in talking to me.

 

[cursed]

I think I'm weirder then I think I am,

i also think the same maybe i might be correct. But not talking for longer periods actually vocalizing stuff its hard i lose myself i have to translate the non-translatable internet stuff i struggle to find the proper words i walk in circles. if i'm lucky i'll get trucking screw the people trying to drive and chill i'll be all up on those radios drive and broadcast my thoughts. I have a few ideas of trucking company names if have to register one. it should have '1776' in it. i love the history behind ever since i learned about it.

I have limited interactions with people since i don't go out unless they ask I don't talk to them. I'm over trying to strike conversations. like you they ignore me.

 

[nihilum]

At least we have this forum

 

[z_ro]

And normfags often say that autists lack language comprehension and self-awareness. Theory of mind? Excuse me? What other prejudices haven't they exercised upon autists yet?