It was a normal day in january 2024, I was 16, I was convinced to buzz my hair by some pseudo-intellectuals on Tik Tok that was HTN and had women swarmed around him for having aesthetically pleasting to hear voice and opinions worded on some books. He convinced that buzzing your hair makes you feel defenseless, and you could rebuild your character somehow when now im taking oral minox to keep my hair with my alienated vertical forehead
I remember that day detailedly. I picked the cheap, wool knitted flower that I have gifted my mom for Womens Day last year, and I still deeply regret it by now... Why in the fuck, would I steal something that I had gifted to my mom, for other people? Did my brain fall off but I remember I was still retarded like that up until I am almost 19.
I still ask myself to this day, why was I so low-IQ to confess to a girl? How was I not aware about how ugly I look, and did I even have the brain to perceive my thoughts, actions and my gook face? I even remember having some people commented on how "gooky" my eyes look, "open your eyes, I can't even see them !" they said. And I laughed it off, I didn't feel anything about discrimination of my face because it didn't matter much to me.
It was in lunch time. I picked the moment where there were no one that could have seen us and she was walking back to her dorm (My highschool had a dorm), I rushed at her and pretended to breath heavily to not make the situation any less awkward. I only told her "I like you, please take it" and she replied-"No I won't, thank you. And I appreciate your feelings for me"
She was a well mannered girl raised in a good family. She also had good manners and nice grades, probaly the smartest foid I've ever met. A pheromone-driven 16 years old me would just think about how looking at her makes my heart shutter, and not how neurodivergent and autistic I looked being a Sub5 Gookcel that had a buzz, literally a fucking alien with my forehead too. It was crazy.
Later she DM'd me on Instagram, thanking me for my feelings but she didn't see me as a love interest. Obviously with my banished face, no female in the age of 16 with almost unlimited attention from other males would look at my face. I rehearse this scene everyday like how Islamic states with their Qu'ran, except that Qu'ran had insights and I am running 1000 scenes over this humiliation ritual
The biggest regret was telling the girl next to me that I had confessed to my crush. I hadn't realize how normies work, I was a dumb and retarded teenager. And it all spiraled down from here, I became a laughing stock and basically had people said:"Look at yourself man".
My closest high school friends would say:"Hey its ok you need to improve yourself".. I was lucky to not be overly ashamed but I paid my price. Still mirin how low inhib I was
I remember that day detailedly. I picked the cheap, wool knitted flower that I have gifted my mom for Womens Day last year, and I still deeply regret it by now... Why in the fuck, would I steal something that I had gifted to my mom, for other people? Did my brain fall off but I remember I was still retarded like that up until I am almost 19.
I still ask myself to this day, why was I so low-IQ to confess to a girl? How was I not aware about how ugly I look, and did I even have the brain to perceive my thoughts, actions and my gook face? I even remember having some people commented on how "gooky" my eyes look, "open your eyes, I can't even see them !" they said. And I laughed it off, I didn't feel anything about discrimination of my face because it didn't matter much to me.
It was in lunch time. I picked the moment where there were no one that could have seen us and she was walking back to her dorm (My highschool had a dorm), I rushed at her and pretended to breath heavily to not make the situation any less awkward. I only told her "I like you, please take it" and she replied-"No I won't, thank you. And I appreciate your feelings for me"
She was a well mannered girl raised in a good family. She also had good manners and nice grades, probaly the smartest foid I've ever met. A pheromone-driven 16 years old me would just think about how looking at her makes my heart shutter, and not how neurodivergent and autistic I looked being a Sub5 Gookcel that had a buzz, literally a fucking alien with my forehead too. It was crazy.
Later she DM'd me on Instagram, thanking me for my feelings but she didn't see me as a love interest. Obviously with my banished face, no female in the age of 16 with almost unlimited attention from other males would look at my face. I rehearse this scene everyday like how Islamic states with their Qu'ran, except that Qu'ran had insights and I am running 1000 scenes over this humiliation ritual
The biggest regret was telling the girl next to me that I had confessed to my crush. I hadn't realize how normies work, I was a dumb and retarded teenager. And it all spiraled down from here, I became a laughing stock and basically had people said:"Look at yourself man".
My closest high school friends would say:"Hey its ok you need to improve yourself".. I was lucky to not be overly ashamed but I paid my price. Still mirin how low inhib I was
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Fucking retard
