packardD
mentally ill|nosepilled|heightpilled|2028
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Is this the sign ? I am quite literally losing my sanity. It has gotten to the point where i just lay in bed. I lay in my bed for several hours, try to masturbate every so often, it does not work because i have ED, my dick literally does not get up at all anymore, i mean at ALL. I can't coom, i can't sleep, i can't play video games. My arms feel heavy and they always hurt everywhere. My eyes hurt, my head hurts, my legs hurt.
Several hours ago i was LDARing hard, i was laying in my bed as always, and for some reason this thought crossed my mind that i should try to look at myself from the side if you know what i mean, like imaginarily leave my body and look at it from a different perspective like in those chinese karate kung fu shaolin monk movies or something
And i noticed that once i leave my body everything feels the same. I don't know how to explain. Man i am losing it. What is going on ? This is scary, but at least i have a new hobby now, derealizationmaxxing 
On top of that, i have been getting panic attacks related to my next year at jewuniversity. Pointless and extremely tiring
I think it's completely ovER for my mental health at this point. I am a fucking vegetable schizo rotter. What inceldom does to a mf.
There is no point in living life if you missed out on teen/young love. You heard me. There is quite literally no point. Everything else is cope. Food , hobbies (jfl), vidya, work, money, fame, everything is cope.
Several hours ago i was LDARing hard, i was laying in my bed as always, and for some reason this thought crossed my mind that i should try to look at myself from the side if you know what i mean, like imaginarily leave my body and look at it from a different perspective like in those chinese karate kung fu shaolin monk movies or something
On top of that, i have been getting panic attacks related to my next year at jewuniversity. Pointless and extremely tiring
I think it's completely ovER for my mental health at this point. I am a fucking vegetable schizo rotter. What inceldom does to a mf.
There is no point in living life if you missed out on teen/young love. You heard me. There is quite literally no point. Everything else is cope. Food , hobbies (jfl), vidya, work, money, fame, everything is cope.





