Bare in mind I am not done, I'm only 4-5 episodes in but I suppose I was expecting Light Yagami to be a more dark and isolated character with his Death Note writing away at those who wronged him. For example the last episode I watched he hugs Yuri at a bus stop and I can't help but feel jealous. A sense and knowing that I will never have a girl like that, being a student again and having that chance. The way she looked up at him, and yet he is barely interested. All the missed years, even though I'm 22 I spent all my formative years in severe isolation and still do. I can't help but long for the past perhaps in a different Universe where I did attend schooling like everyone else and had my chance at having a cutie like Yuri to depend on me. Even Anime is brutal for this, the reality for all is love and connection. I have none and have never experienced what that feels like. Thus no matter how niche your enjoyments, it will always contain elements of a normie world. I could find the least watched Anime and I can assure it still contains a guy and girl lusting for each other, just got to deal with it i guess. If I had the Death Note I would annihilate much of what keeps society balanced just to see it burn, not even in a sadistic sense, all I wanted was to connect and be desired and yet it just can't and won't happen. I'll still finish it most likely, just push past the reality that what I ultimately desire is just another Tuesday for most. All good
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