Day off weed, feeling sad

[incels.REEEE]

Unfortunately, I have developed a tolerance in the past few weeks. Thus, last night I decided to take a break. It was fine, and I actually slept very well and had high hopes. However, today has gone very differently. It is like my memories and brain are on overdrive and everything is so clear that it makes me very sad. I keep remembering bad things that happened to me like rejections, bullying and some of the worst times in my life( like when I used inhalants after bullying, attempted suicide in my room and then my "friends" laughed at the red marks on my neck the next day knowing what I did). This isn't all bad. In fact, it almost feels refreshing and I have more energy/mental focus. However, it has left me just feeling sad, lonely and depressed. This world is a disaster and nothing I can do sober will change that. I will always be an incel separated from love by unbreakable walls. I have decided to continue medicating with my new girlfriend "Mary Jane". Fuck cucktears, feminists, human nature etc.

I have to leave for work soon(caretaking at granny's). I will buy a 4/20 bar on the way and listen to this while high tonight:

 

[acnescarcel]

never quit weed b0y0

 

[NEETAndTidy]

If you take. T-break your tolerance will go back to normal almost instantly upon smoking again.

 

[Mumbles]

I'm the opposite, when I smoke too much weed I become depressed/depersionalized and feel that I'm not quite human and all my emotions flood away from me. I become nothing I have no feeling whatso ever. Its a painful thing so i try to keep weed consumption at a minimum. Though I did know a guy who was the opposite, without weed he'd have a fucking panic attack. Even if it had only been a few hours.

 

[incels.REEEE]

I'm the opposite, when I smoke too much weed I become depressed/depersionalized and feel that I'm not quite human and all my emotions flood away from me. I become nothing I have no feeling whatso ever. Its a painful thing so i try to keep weed consumption at a minimum. Though I did know a guy who was the opposite, without weed he'd have a fucking panic attack. Even if it had only been a few hours.

I also become depersonalized when I do it. For me though that's a good thing. Being locked inside my incel is awful but when I'm high I can focus on fantasies, my senses and the internet instead.

If you take. T-break your tolerance will go back to normal almost instantly upon smoking again.

Just had my first edible!
https://forum.grasscity.com/threads/one-day-tolerance-break.1433392/

 

[Modus Coperandi]

yea quitting/taking breaks sucks, but it only lasts for a week roughly, after that you won't really miss it and you won't feel depressed anymore. I'm in my third month of my break right now, because I smoked daily for more than two years.

quitting smoking is way harder.

 

[incels.REEEE]

yea quitting/taking breaks sucks, but it only lasts for a week roughly, after that you won't really miss it and you won't feel depressed anymore. I'm in my third month of my break right now, because I smoked daily for more than two years.

quitting smoking is way harder.

I might take a break next Monday-Friday to get low tolerance again. I think quitting would make me depressed until I get a girlfriend since I suffered from depression before starting. Right now I am high af with my granny!

 

[Modus Coperandi]

I might take a break next Monday-Friday to get low tolerance again. I think quitting would make me depressed until I get a girlfriend since I suffered from depression before starting. Right now I am high af with my granny!

lol with your granny? damn I want a granny like that, too!
I don't plan on quitting for good either, I had the same problem like you with the high tolerance and when my dealer had an accident and was 2 weeks in hospital I was basically forced to take a break which I then simply extended until now. damn talking about this really makes me want to smoke right now lol.
have a nice trip, m'dude

 

[Weed]

I know how you feel. I suggest quitting tho because if you binge smoke it everyday you are going to have an insomia after you quit and even more negative thoughts. Depends on an invidual I guess.
I suggest you do acid instead once per month or microdosing it. You can read up my mini trip report here and you might be interested https://incels.is/threads/doto.61078/ . It is also easy to get.

yea quitting/taking breaks sucks, but it only lasts for a week roughly, after that you won't really miss it and you won't feel depressed anymore. I'm in my third month of my break right now, because I smoked daily for more than two years.

quitting smoking is way harder.

I agree. There is a mental and physical addiction. It REALLY does depend on a person and I guess we are the rare ones that actually get addicted to it. I naturally have an addicting personality and then there are side effects like very negative thoughts and depression. I would rather do acid

 

[incels.REEEE]

lol with your granny? damn I want a granny like that, too!
I don't plan on quitting for good either, I had the same problem like you with the high tolerance and when my dealer had an accident and was 2 weeks in hospital I was basically forced to take a break which I then simply extended until now. damn talking about this really makes me want to smoke right now lol.
have a nice trip, m'dude