99% of you fucks have terrible parents/environment that set you up for total failure, meanwhile uglier stupider guys get pussy handed to them on a silver platter just because their family encouraged social interactions
I introduced myself to girl at a young age and nothing changed. So this is a huge cope post. I was around girls and wasn't shy around them when I was little. It didn't help shit. The social contact matters when you are entering puberty 13-16 not before.
I met my destined crush by literal destiny. I was hanging out on a balcony (I lived on a high floor in a communist block-flat) and I was poor so I had no toys because we were living in communism but I had a plastic bag from groceries and I had a plastic soldier so I tied him to the plastic bag and made a parachute and I also tied the parachute to a knitting linen so that I could recover it when I dropped it out of the balcony.
I did that a few times but one time I couldn't recover it. Something was holding onto it. I didn't want to pull too hard because the knitting linen was very easy to break and I didn't wanna lose my plastic toy soldier because it was one of the few ones I had so I leaned out of the balcony to see what the fuck is holding onto my toy and I saw a pair of small hands a floor below me. I pulled it a bit more and I saw a young girl look up to me and giggle. I managed to get my toy back, but that got me interested. So instead I grabbed a line we used to do dry our clothes with and tied a piece of paper to it, asking the girl who she was. She replied with her name and a smiley face. That is when my crush began.
Later on, she visited my house to come out and play. But my cucked parents didn't allow me to leave (fucking cockblocked by my parents it's over) and I lost my opportunity. Later on I saw her in school and we talked and I would stalk her for long time and we would meet each other here and there for few years until I was like 10 years of age. That is when I stopped seeing her and also my parents emigrated because of the war and I never saw her again.
She was my crush for like 4-5 years when I was little.
That was probably the last time in my life I had a positive interaction with a female. Ever since 11 years old It was nothing but hell stacked upon hell. I don't think there is a form of mental torture that would work on me after what I've been through in my life. I've been battling crippling depression for like 16 years now without a single ounce of help from anyone.
Anyway, I'm considering taking DMT, I heard it can alter your personality in positive ways.