Venting Completely consumed by hatred. Forgotten my past self

[deleted fren]

I don't feel like I have a personality anymore. I've completely forgotten whoever I was. The only thing that remains now is hatred and desire. A strong hatred remains. A hatred that has completely consumed my soul. My mind is full of hate 24/7. My dreams are filled with hatred.

When I interact with people irl I play a character. The character is a mockery of who I used to be. As the days go on the character I play in real life has become more and more two dimensional and lifeless. It's a thin facade that barely hides the contempt underneath.

This isn't a post of self reflection where I recognize my "faults." No. Normies killed the old me. They killed him and laughed while doing so. Whatever soul I had was crushed by their cruelty.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

This is exactly what happened to me too. After years of humiliation, rejection and failure. After being laughed at to my face, I simply became another person.

I think the biggest impact is losing your innocence. Losing the innocence you were born with. You lose your good attitude towards the world around you; you become bitter, and resentful, mean and full of negativity. Then you just try to bury it, but you can't.

 

[PrototypeCel]

i cant even enjoy my copes anymore
i miss the days when i didnt call them copes
but thats what they are and they arent really doing it for me anymore

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

I hope to ascend to your level kind saar, I'm still high inhib, I still care for others even though they have wronged me a plethora of times. The same people who laugh and ridicule me, once they get the karma they so rightly deserved, I start to feel sympathy towards them but I want to rejoice in their pain yet for some reason I can not

 

[BlueCore]

same, I'm a completely different person

 

[DioptricAtol]

Can relate. Wonder what comes next. Though the important question is, are we being conditioned to end up like this?

 

[CroatianManlet2]

I don't feel like I have a personality anymore. I've completely forgotten whoever I was. The only thing that remains now is hatred and desire. A strong hatred remains. A hatred that has completely consumed my soul. My mind is full of hate 24/7. My dreams are filled with hatred.

When I interact with people irl I play a character. The character is a mockery of who I used to be. As the days go on the character I play in real life has become more and more two dimensional and lifeless. It's a thin facade that barely hides the contempt underneath.

This isn't a post of self reflection where I recognize my "faults." No. Normies killed the old me. They killed him and laughed while doing so. Whatever soul I had was crushed by their cruelty.

When kikes and normies kill everything you love this is what becomes of you. We didn't change the world changed for even worse.