Uni about to start again, yet I can’t even force myself to do this.
Its not even hard I am just lazymaxxing and dreading everything which causes me to procrastinate with something meaningless, which makes me hate myself even more.
Find nothing that I procrastinate with entertaining even, between the doomscrolls/reading/playing/news snooping/internet arguments I get completely sick of it as well but I can’t stop: just thinking about doing something purposeful and looking away from my mind-numbing time wasters makes me feel extremely anxious and a bit scared.
No real pleasure from any of this yet I’m addicted to the numbness of it all, as soon as i’m left to my own mind I spiral into self-destruction and loathing like a little bitch.
Honestly i want to just stop doing anything at all, not even procrastinate. Just ldar in the truest sense fuck
Brutal discipline pill.
Its not even hard I am just lazymaxxing and dreading everything which causes me to procrastinate with something meaningless, which makes me hate myself even more.
Find nothing that I procrastinate with entertaining even, between the doomscrolls/reading/playing/news snooping/internet arguments I get completely sick of it as well but I can’t stop: just thinking about doing something purposeful and looking away from my mind-numbing time wasters makes me feel extremely anxious and a bit scared.
No real pleasure from any of this yet I’m addicted to the numbness of it all, as soon as i’m left to my own mind I spiral into self-destruction and loathing like a little bitch.
Honestly i want to just stop doing anything at all, not even procrastinate. Just ldar in the truest sense fuck
Brutal discipline pill.
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