SuicideFuel cant sleep anymore because i daydream of a girl

[deadcells]

everyday, from morning to midnight, my mind creates thousands of scenarios with a girl i once saw back in high school, i never ever approached her back then as i knew id just creep her out nor even have any idea who she is. ive only observed her several times. she wasnt some popular bitch or anything, she was emo but not like a dyke with colored hair. i didnt even notice anyone talk to her, not even any male orbiters, and she was mostly on her phone. i wouldnt know if she was texting pretty boy chad online but i didnt see any type of texting motion from her hands ever, so i assume not. i didnt really have much to do back then in school so it was either look at her if she was ever around or at my phone. id say she was very pretty and far superior to any bitch i ever saw back then.

as of the couple months of late, ive been stuck in deep thought of what could have been, and daydreaming of me and her together, all the cutesy shit we could have done, all theoretical conversations we could have had. i talk to a mental image of her by accident many times and have to smack the back of my head constantly. when i am in bed, i cant even fucking sleep because she is there and i just imagine us sleeping together, kissing even.

i dont even know anymore, ive been losing sleep alot, contributing to my plausible mental degeneration. sleep pills do jack shit. i just wonder if i ever approached if she would like me over and over and over. the answer is plain obvious but i feel like if i could ever go back in time, and get rejected with everyone laughing at me, it would be better than this.

 

[DriveLikeNigger]

I think she's waiting for you in the other side brother, it's a sign for you to join her. Don't fall for harlot tricks

 

[Wizardmaxxer]

I think she's waiting for you in the other side brother, it's a sign for you to join her. Don't fall for harlot tricks

 

[Sir Silentium]

I can relate heavily. When we are lacking so much connection with them, our brain has to find a way to compensate. Which in our case is constant thoughts about a particular scenario.

When we biologically need to have something to survive or pass on genes, our brain naturally has to compensate.

I made a little thread that you may want to read:

Biological Response to a lack of Connection

When we are lacking a factor that biologically we need to have to survive and pass on genes - our body is naturally going to find ways to account and fill the gaps. When the brain lacks something essential (connection, intimacy, belonging), it doesn’t shut down - it compensates. Such as: Being...

incels.is

 

[deadcells]

I can relate heavily. When we are lacking so much connection with them, our brain has to find a way to compensate. Which in our case is constant thoughts about a particular scenario.

When we biologically need to have something to survive or pass on genes, our brain naturally has to compensate.

I made a little thread that you may want to read:

Biological Response to a lack of Connection

When we are lacking a factor that biologically we need to have to survive and pass on genes - our body is naturally going to find ways to account and fill the gaps. When the brain lacks something essential (connection, intimacy, belonging), it doesn’t shut down - it compensates. Such as: Being...

incels.is

thanks dude, i read the thread and i am probably a textbook case

 

[Sir Silentium]

thanks dude, i read the thread and i am probably a textbook case

It would be very common amongst people on the forum I can imagine.

Most people in the world end up just going out and meeting new people, or if worst comes to worse, they'll see a therapist or psychologist on the matter. Or at least vent to their friends to give them real guidance.

 

[Sir Silentium]

thanks dude, i read the thread and i am probably a textbook case

But I am still in the same position as you unfortunately.

 

[deadcells]

But I am still in the same position as you unfortunately.

curious about your case. how do you cope in general?

 

[Sir Silentium]

curious about your case. how do you cope in general?

By going on incels.is haha, since the 8th of August last year.

It has helped me cope heaps. I now understand that I wouldn't have had a chance anyways, and even if I did she would most likely cheat even as a "christian" - but a modern one of course. Honestly without this site I don't know where I would be, but I wouldn't be in a good headspace that's for sure.


But I will tell you what not to do:
Do not try and find more information out about her. I infatuated myself trying to find out everything about her, from family trees all the way to addresses.

Do you know her on social media? If not then you will hopefully overcome it soon enough.

How long has it been an issue for?

 

[hikkicel]

I think she's waiting for you in the other side brother, it's a sign for you to join her. Don't fall for harlot tricks

 

[deadcells]

Do you know her on social media? If not then you will hopefully overcome it soon enough.

How long has it been an issue for?

for the better or for the worse, i do not know her socials. almost 2 years i think? however only recently it has gotten progressively worse i think since the start of january. back then i just assumed it was a oneitis.

 

[Sir Silentium]

for the better or for the worse, i do not know her socials. almost 2 years i think? however only recently it has gotten progressively worse i think since the start of january. back then i just assumed it was a oneitis.

That's good you don't know her socials, keep it that way.

 

[AutismKing]

Yeah, but mine oneitis is purely fictional creation of my mind. Meant to compensate for my lack of connection and love all my life. I was never loved, just abused while Chads and Stacies fucked inside the bathroom stalls in my school. Brutal.

Anyway, I get that this daydreaming is just to painful. Sometimes I wish I just had faced the pain and rejection anyway instead of chicken out. I hate myself really

 

[BoredWolf]

everyday, from morning to midnight, my mind creates thousands of scenarios with a girl i once saw back in high school, i never ever approached her back then as i knew id just creep her out nor even have any idea who she is. ive only observed her several times. she wasnt some popular bitch or anything, she was emo but not like a dyke with colored hair. i didnt even notice anyone talk to her, not even any male orbiters, and she was mostly on her phone. i wouldnt know if she was texting pretty boy chad online but i didnt see any type of texting motion from her hands ever, so i assume not. i didnt really have much to do back then in school so it was either look at her if she was ever around or at my phone. id say she was very pretty and far superior to any bitch i ever saw back then.

as of the couple months of late, ive been stuck in deep thought of what could have been, and daydreaming of me and her together, all the cutesy shit we could have done, all theoretical conversations we could have had. i talk to a mental image of her by accident many times and have to smack the back of my head constantly. when i am in bed, i cant even fucking sleep because she is there and i just imagine us sleeping together, kissing even.

i dont even know anymore, ive been losing sleep alot, contributing to my plausible mental degeneration. sleep pills do jack shit. i just wonder if i ever approached if she would like me over and over and over. the answer is plain obvious but i feel like if i could ever go back in time, and get rejected with everyone laughing at me, it would be better than this

Honestly if you are on this forum in the first place the answer to if she would have rejected you is a yes.If you still have trouble sleeping just go for late night walks ,worked for me when i had your situation. Every night before i went to sleep i would fantasize about a relationship with her so i would just get up, walk till i felt tired and when i came back home my head would hit the pillow .I got rejected by her in real life but since you didn't have that just take my word for it that the same would happen to you so its no use thinking about it. Anyways wish you the best, hope you sleep well soon.

 

[henrydoki]

everyday, from morning to midnight, my mind creates thousands of scenarios with a girl i once saw back in high school, i never ever approached her back then as i knew id just creep her out nor even have any idea who she is. ive only observed her several times. she wasnt some popular bitch or anything, she was emo but not like a dyke with colored hair. i didnt even notice anyone talk to her, not even any male orbiters, and she was mostly on her phone. i wouldnt know if she was texting pretty boy chad online but i didnt see any type of texting motion from her hands ever, so i assume not. i didnt really have much to do back then in school so it was either look at her if she was ever around or at my phone. id say she was very pretty and far superior to any bitch i ever saw back then.

as of the couple months of late, ive been stuck in deep thought of what could have been, and daydreaming of me and her together, all the cutesy shit we could have done, all theoretical conversations we could have had. i talk to a mental image of her by accident many times and have to smack the back of my head constantly. when i am in bed, i cant even fucking sleep because she is there and i just imagine us sleeping together, kissing even.

i dont even know anymore, ive been losing sleep alot, contributing to my plausible mental degeneration. sleep pills do jack shit. i just wonder if i ever approached if she would like me over and over and over. the answer is plain obvious but i feel like if i could ever go back in time, and get rejected with everyone laughing at me, it would be better than this.

It's over, man. Don't waste your time thinking that maybe if you had gone there you would be together now. Instead, imagine you two together, in another distant life, in a new universe where you're a pretty bad boy who bullies outcasts and has her as your girlfriend. I don't judge you, quite the opposite. that's all. i also think about it all the time, Me and my old online obsession, which I truly loved and was brutally rejected for, anyway...

 

[nihilum]

can't relate