uranium235
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I am aware that if i don't do well in these exams i will waste my 10,000 because i don't get scholarship if i didn't do well in these exams i don't have any plans what i will do tomorrow because i think of suicide every single day and can't study because i have no hope for tomorrow can't bring myself to commit suicide once i tried roping but stopped myself from that i just live i think my will be much better if i quit this engineering shit i liked physics and math and wanted to become a mathematician or a physicist but my parents didn't let me because all they want is a high paying job but i hate this programming bullshit my iq can't cope with this algorithms and shit i want to study but i can't i remember studying almost 5-7 hours a day when i was preparing for qualifying exam but i can't study now because it's something that I'm not interested in i like math and it always been a cope to me I'm socially isolated from everyone i don't talk to anyone I'm not even rude i talk to everyone friendly even I'm the one who says hi first everytime I see someone i know but all these fuckers are too much repelled by my ugliness that they ignore me everytime it's hard to get guns in my country if i get i will free myself from this misery