Tbh I think being a virgin at 24 has scarred me psychologically, I truly feel worthless because if I had any worth Idve found a gf and had sex by now
I just feel like I have no value beyond my healthy organs and ability to work because no girl wants me (for a teen/early 20s girl to have sex with you she must be into you because you really have nothing to offer as a young guy in college other than yourself)
Its reached the point when I get positive feedback (work/academics related) I find it hard to accept that its genuine, criticism on the other hand just feel natural because I feel like Im trash so it fits me
Realistically with me being so useless I feel like if I ever get a girlfriend it will be some girl who really cant get anyone else to commit but doesnt want to be alone and then shell resent me for it and settle for me and cheat, but Id never dump her because the alternative would be being alone
Its just what will happen and what I deserve because Im too ugly to do better and have a girl want to be with me out of her own choice
I honestly think I just need to be euthanized at this point, its too over, Im not even good at being a worker bee anymore because I have intrusive thoughts about not having a gf and I find it hard to sit down and focus on work so I keep missing my deadlines