There are many times where I find myself in this mood where I'm deep in thought about my life during the night time. I make up plans that deep down I know I won't be able to execute on acting as if I'm playing chess while everybody else is playing checkers. It's an intoxicating feeling because it allows me to escape the harsh reality that I am living in for the moment to fantasize about being someone else whose not only important but has meaning in their life. It's like my mind would like for all this suffering that I have gone through to mean something in the end.
