Holy shit the fucking suifuel I had today. Idc what you say, being careermogged by your peers (or worse, people younger than you) is so, so much worse.
Look, I was always weak and ignored socially. So I'm used to my looks not doing me any favors, now that I'm even ugly and bald it's worse but I'm used to it.
But being careermogged... it hurts you to your soul. It's such an awful experience, you feel so inferior. Like you're worth much less as a person.
Look, I was always weak and ignored socially. So I'm used to my looks not doing me any favors, now that I'm even ugly and bald it's worse but I'm used to it.
But being careermogged... it hurts you to your soul. It's such an awful experience, you feel so inferior. Like you're worth much less as a person.
I was used to the idea that I'm mogged by the people I went to highschool with. That was a private school and I only got there cause I was bullied in public school and my dad used a favor to get a discount and send me there. So those people went to the US and UK and whatnot, I'm used to the idea of them being much more successful than me. Even more so that I dropped out and lost 2 years of my life with nothing to show for it, except wasting my one chance at a good life in a better country.
But... this is different. I'm mogged in this shitty university back in my home country. This shitty country. People in this shitty master's degree mogging me to hell and back. Some of them came from fucking villages, literal fucking peasants, and now they work in all kinds of fancy institutions. Others work in institutions such as the ministry of external affairs, the presidency and all kinds of other fucking fancy places. And despite me being unemployed, I still put in much less effort into working on this degree. They're outdoing me in everything. And I'm out of energy and stressed out after doing 1 presentation or writing an essay or two a week.
It feels so bad to be mogged like this. It really bummed me out.
Here's the thing, I'd be perfectly happy being a NEET. But I can't be, I'll have to wageslave soon anyway. But I'll wageslave at the bottom of the barrel, some shit job. While people with whom I've studied will be much above me. And I'm fucking smarter than most of them, I know it. All normies are fucking retarded compared to me, there I said it. Might sound narcissistic but I can't fucking see it any other way, they just feel so stupid compared to me.
Worse yet, my dad tried to pull a few major favors a year ago, the biggest he had, to get me a decent job. But I'm so unemployable that even with those favors in this corrupt hellhole country where only connections and favors matter, I still didn't get the job, not even an interview or a meeting.
Anyway, many of these people are 1 or 2 years younger than me and more successful. Meanwhile I'll transition from my mid 20s to late 20s soon, and I'll barely be doing bottom of the barrel shit. I hate the process of getting jobs in this world, need to have all these bullshit and time-consuming shit on your resume, they don't really reflect anything.
Well, I guess the 12 years of depression and rotting have taken their toll. I'll now be forced to stop rotting and blocking real life out of my mind, and I'll be exposed to all that I've missed out on, to all that my peers have accomplished while I rotted and wallowed in crippling depression.
I guess it's no use complaining about it. Given the chance I'd do the same thing. My personality and mental illnesses guarantee that I would just avoid people and work as much as possible anyway. Guess I truly am retarded in my own way.
But... this is different. I'm mogged in this shitty university back in my home country. This shitty country. People in this shitty master's degree mogging me to hell and back. Some of them came from fucking villages, literal fucking peasants, and now they work in all kinds of fancy institutions. Others work in institutions such as the ministry of external affairs, the presidency and all kinds of other fucking fancy places. And despite me being unemployed, I still put in much less effort into working on this degree. They're outdoing me in everything. And I'm out of energy and stressed out after doing 1 presentation or writing an essay or two a week.
It feels so bad to be mogged like this. It really bummed me out.
Here's the thing, I'd be perfectly happy being a NEET. But I can't be, I'll have to wageslave soon anyway. But I'll wageslave at the bottom of the barrel, some shit job. While people with whom I've studied will be much above me. And I'm fucking smarter than most of them, I know it. All normies are fucking retarded compared to me, there I said it. Might sound narcissistic but I can't fucking see it any other way, they just feel so stupid compared to me.
Worse yet, my dad tried to pull a few major favors a year ago, the biggest he had, to get me a decent job. But I'm so unemployable that even with those favors in this corrupt hellhole country where only connections and favors matter, I still didn't get the job, not even an interview or a meeting.
Anyway, many of these people are 1 or 2 years younger than me and more successful. Meanwhile I'll transition from my mid 20s to late 20s soon, and I'll barely be doing bottom of the barrel shit. I hate the process of getting jobs in this world, need to have all these bullshit and time-consuming shit on your resume, they don't really reflect anything.
Well, I guess the 12 years of depression and rotting have taken their toll. I'll now be forced to stop rotting and blocking real life out of my mind, and I'll be exposed to all that I've missed out on, to all that my peers have accomplished while I rotted and wallowed in crippling depression.
I guess it's no use complaining about it. Given the chance I'd do the same thing. My personality and mental illnesses guarantee that I would just avoid people and work as much as possible anyway. Guess I truly am retarded in my own way.
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