Maybe it is all I ever wanted.
I’ll never have a family and children with her eyes.
The fact that my mind made me believe I could play it off by living as a careless peter pan manchild is starting to show it’s consequences. Not that I couldve done anything different, but I never knew before.
I could have been a good husband and father, an honest worker, I could have made sacrifices because for what else should I do them? What else should I show up for?
Autism sounds funny but it’s actually a tragedy, worse than schizophrenia, than bpd or any other condition. I mimic what I see around me but Ive no Idea what Im doing with my time. I just know that I love this woman very very very much, we worked together 4 years ago, and I’ll never forget her, nobody will ever look at her with the same love in the heart as I did, she’s my everything.
I’ll never have a family and children with her eyes.
The fact that my mind made me believe I could play it off by living as a careless peter pan manchild is starting to show it’s consequences. Not that I couldve done anything different, but I never knew before.
I could have been a good husband and father, an honest worker, I could have made sacrifices because for what else should I do them? What else should I show up for?
Autism sounds funny but it’s actually a tragedy, worse than schizophrenia, than bpd or any other condition. I mimic what I see around me but Ive no Idea what Im doing with my time. I just know that I love this woman very very very much, we worked together 4 years ago, and I’ll never forget her, nobody will ever look at her with the same love in the heart as I did, she’s my everything.
