Discussion As a truecel, i can't rule out suicide as my endgame. (long)

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

NOTICE TO ANY GLOWIES: No, this is not me promoting violence

For years now i've always dreaded aging, nobody likes aging, especially not me when my body is now damaged by disease and also enduring the constant stress that being a social failure gives you. If with only 24 im like this, whats gonna happen when im 50?, will i even make it to 50?, day by day it seems less plausible for me.

I love my copes i really do, i've been very lucky in some aspects of life compared to most people on this shithole, but copes at the end are just that..copes, how longer they gonna last for me until it all crashes down and i don't find em enjoyable anymore?, i always think of that possibility, hamudi said once no cope lasts forever. Once that runs out, what im gonna be?, a complete husk of a man, old, fucked up, without any chances at all of forming normal relationships.

Do i consider myself suicidal RN?, not really, my copes really make me happy, i have family members close that really care about me despite being a total failure and i have brocels online and one irl that enjoy my presence, for now i suffer a lot, but not the point where i want to die, but what would happen when that close family members pass away or make their own lives?, what if my truecel bud passes away before me?, what im gonna do at my endgame if i reach 50 or 60 or more?, one could say technology is going fowards very rapidly, but all i see rn for me is a possibility of an HORRENDOUS future that i will not be able to avoid.

It's because of all of this that i know i can't rule out going on my own terms if things get extremely tough, I AM entitled to decide when i've had enough, maybe copes keep getting better and better and that will keep me here until something else kills me, but if that doesn't happen and more decades go by and i lose the few things in life that really keep me going, i believe its completely fair to leave when i want and peacefully. I don't enjoy the idea of me having to accept this could be my fate or any other brocel fate, i wish life had been more kind to us. but in my personal case, i know its a possibility for the endgame (if i make it to that age of course, with this body idk )

 

[OutcompetedByRoomba]

Feel somewhat similar. I plan to stick with it mostly because I want to see the world burn, if we are really heading towards some dystopian future. And, of course, I would want to be there in case technology enables some amazing copes. But the hope of achieving a life I would truly consider worth living has long died. Every time I see some difficult challenge ahead in life, part of me wonders if maybe 'this is the time to just skip ahead to the ending'. Very little attachment to life left in me.

Used to be the other way around. During childhood, and to some extent to this day, one of my dreams has been to escape death by old age through technological progress. But without any in-group, without people to socialized with irl, without friends to share your life with, without a partner, without a family, without a tribe... under such circumstances the good things in life left are basic hedonistic pleasures. And those have grown stale over the decades.

 

[PurgatoryPass]

Feel somewhat similar. I plan to stick with it mostly because I want to see the world burn, if we are really heading towards some dystopian future. And, of course, I would want to be there in case technology enables some amazing copes. But the hope of achieving a life I would truly consider worth living has long died. Every time I see some difficult challenge ahead in life, part of me wonders if maybe 'this is the time to just skip ahead to the ending'. Very little attachment to life left in me.

Used to be the other way around. During childhood, and to some extent to this day, one of my dreams has been to escape death by old age through technological progress. But without any in-group, without people to socialized with irl, without friends to share your life with, without a partner, without a family, without a tribe... under such circumstances the good things in life left are basic hedonistic pleasures. And those have grown stale over the decades.

If they ever do cure aging it would likely cause extreme stagnation. The elites would have the pleasures they want and all the time in to world to focus on locking down power while the normies would be allowed to age and die with the best of every new crop of young foids being consumed like fresh turnips.

 

[Deleted Member 8090]

It's so sad people can punish themselves for the evil of others.
Horizons need to be expanded

 

[SilverBullet]

healthpill is brutal. i want to die everyday. copes are meh, hard to enjoy them when you're in chronic pain and constantly distracted from fucking neurological issues. my hope is we'll have cure for most illnesses in a couple decades. but the rope is likely inevitable. i have no idea how i'll support myself unless AI takes all jobs and everyone can rot at home with social welfare system

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I will personally cope until I can't anymore, then I'll have to figure a way out. Whether it be finding a way to end it or something else...

 

[slapthatsillywilly]

Yeah I understand you, sticking around as long as you can still feel ok but having the option to exit if it gets too much. What are your copes? Just curious

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

the rope is likely inevitable. i have no idea how i'll support myself unless AI takes all jobs and everyone can rot at home with social welfare system

 

[Notkev]

NOTICE TO ANY GLOWIES: No, this is not me promoting violence

For years now i've always dreaded aging, nobody likes aging, especially not me when my body is now damaged by disease and also enduring the constant stress that being a social failure gives you. If with only 24 im like this, whats gonna happen when im 50?, will i even make it to 50?, day by day it seems less plausible for me.

I love my copes i really do, i've been very lucky in some aspects of life compared to most people on this shithole, but copes at the end are just that..copes, how longer they gonna last for me until it all crashes down and i don't find em enjoyable anymore?, i always think of that possibility, hamudi said once no cope lasts forever. Once that runs out, what im gonna be?, a complete husk of a man, old, fucked up, without any chances at all of forming normal relationships.

Do i consider myself suicidal RN?, not really, my copes really make me happy, i have family members close that really care about me despite being a total failure and i have brocels online and one irl that enjoy my presence, for now i suffer a lot, but not the point where i want to die, but what would happen when that close family members pass away or make their own lives?, what if my truecel bud passes away before me?, what im gonna do at my endgame if i reach 50 or 60 or more?, one could say technology is going fowards very rapidly, but all i see rn for me is a possibility of an HORRENDOUS future that i will not be able to avoid.

It's because of all of this that i know i can't rule out going on my own terms if things get extremely tough, I AM entitled to decide when i've had enough, maybe copes keep getting better and better and that will keep me here until something else kills me, but if that doesn't happen and more decades go by and i lose the few things in life that really keep me going, i believe its completely fair to leave when i want and peacefully. I don't enjoy the idea of me having to accept this could be my fate or any other brocel fate, i wish life had been more kind to us. but in my personal case, i know its a possibility for the endgame (if i make it to that age of course, with this body idk )

I feel similarly

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

Yeah I understand you, sticking around as long as you can still feel ok but having the option to exit if it gets too much. What are your copes? Just curious

Vidya, anime, collecting, knives, food, visiting empty places

 

[slapthatsillywilly]

Vidya, anime, collecting, knives, food, visiting empty places

Nice what do you collect?

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

Nice what do you collect?

I love cards, card games and knives, recently i got quite a few more victorinox