Are you very high inhib?

[poorenglishcel]

I am very high inhib. It feels like to be a cripple tbhngl. You can't do 80% of shit that normal people do without even thinking. To them it's like taking a walk in the park. Why did i do to deserve these curse man????? People around me probably would have thought that i am mute or something. I guess it's probably natural to be a recluse when you are butt fuck ugly. I probably am autistic or something as well(undiagnosed). Both these factors definitely are major factors responsible for my high inhibition. But i feel a big part of my meekness is just genetic.

Whenever i hear my phone ringing my stomach starts to twist even though i know it would just be parents calling cause no one else knows about my eixstence. Can't use mic in online videogames. It's as if an invisbible force is pulling my finger away from the mic button. Have never been in a physical fight. Have never smoked, drank or whatever other shit normies do that i don't even know exist. Never used any soycial media. Never had online friends(ofcourse no irl ones either).
Can't even cope with fighting users on this site lol. I initially planned about writing only a sentence or two but here i keep on typing more and more shit. Feels like i am trying to host a pity party here.

Do you high inhib mog me? Animecel2D ofcourse don't. The users with low post count for their join date are probably the bunch with maximum concentration of the high inhib chumps( like me, take no offense).

 

[Autist]

@Truest truecel

 

[Jealous Freak]

I'm a very high inhib.

 

[Trick]

I'm a very high inhib

 

[Samkakum]

I turn around when people walk to my direction and don’t look people in the eyes when i have to speak

 

[finasscel]

Yeah. Every conversation remains in my mind. I regret every wrong word I say and obsess over them for days. Meanwhile the other party probably didn't bother to remember me, forget forgetting.

 

[X.9]

yes I am

 

[Jacket]

Extremely, but for a good reason. Bullied since very young age and alienated, my brain tried to protect me from hostile environment.

I only feel somewhat at peace when I'm isolated. I socialised and had 'friends' as younger but it always led to more trauma.

 

[poorenglishcel]

I turn around when people walk to my direction

Random people on the roads?

 

[psycho123]

constantly overthinking every decision or interaction

 

[Samkakum]

Random people on the roads?

Yes, everytime unless it’s a busy street which would make that pointless

 

[AdolfRizzler]

I'm a very high inhib.

 

[scrully]

I'm a very high inhib.

 

[poorenglishcel]

I only feel somewhat at peace when I'm isolated.

I can't relax in the vicinity of others either. It's as if i am holding my breath whenever i am not totally alone in my room. Only when i enter my room i can finally breathe.

 

[poorenglishcel]

Yeah. Every conversation remains in my mind. I regret every wrong word I say and obsess over them for days. Meanwhile the other party probably didn't bother to remember me, forget forgetting.

Very relatable brocel. I took a long time to write the OP as well. Constantly making corrections and ovethinking how others are gonna percieve me. When the reality is no one cares about some random ass thread. Constantly so many threads are being made. My thread is just another one in the sea of many threads. I often times type some response and then proceed to delete all of it. I obsess over how i walk and pronouce my words. I get conscious of the swinging of my hands back and forth while walking and then i can't seem to move them in a natural manner. I avoid speaking certain words casue i fear i would pronouce them wrong. I then have to resort to utilizing some synonym of it. My name being 'poorenglishcel' is another symbol of my high inhibness. A low inhib person would just spew what ever shit comes to their mind irrespective of how stupid or how grammatical poor their language is. But in my case, i Just laid down my arms and surrendered even before i spoke a single word. Instead of others finding out about my poor linguistic skills, i let them know beforehand so that they don't think ill of me.

Lol i know it's kinda counter intuitive to type a long response to your post when i have already stated that i am really high inhib. But it's just that i really resonated with what you said soi had get all this weight off my chest.

 

[poorenglishcel]

Yes, everytime unless it’s a busy street which would make that pointless

Damn that's brutal. The struggles of trucels are so different from normies.

 

[petricel]

constantly overthinking every decision or interaction

I'm a very high inhib.

 

[poorenglishcel]

constantly overthinking every decision or interaction

Very relatable brocel. I took a long time to write the OP as well. Constantly making corrections and ovethinking how others are gonna percieve me. When the reality is no one cares about some random ass thread. Constantly so many threads are being made. My thread is just another one in the sea of many threads. I often times type some response and then proceed to delete all of it. I obsess over how i walk and pronouce my words. I get conscious of the swinging of my hands back and forth while walking and then i can't seem to move them in a natural manner. I avoid speaking certain words casue i fear i would pronouce them wrong. I then have to resort to utilizing some synonym of it. My name being 'poorenglishcel' is another symbol of my high inhibness. A low inhib person would just spew what ever shit comes to their mind irrespective of how stupid or how grammatical poor their language is. But in my case, i Just laid down my arms and surrendered even before i spoke a single word. Instead of others finding out about my poor linguistic skills, i let them know beforehand so that they don't think ill of me.

Lol i know it's kinda counter intuitive to type a long response to your post when i have already stated that i am really high inhib. But it's just that i really resonated with what you said soi had get all this weight off my chest.

 

[finasscel]

Very relatable brocel. I took a long time to write the OP as well. Constantly making corrections and ovethinking how others are gonna percieve me. When the reality is no one cares about some random ass thread. Constantly so many threads are being made. My thread is just another one in the sea of many threads. I often times type some response and then proceed to delete all of it. I obsess over how i walk and pronouce my words. I get conscious of the swinging of my hands back and forth while walking and then i can't seem to move them in a natural manner. I avoid speaking certain words casue i fear i would pronouce them wrong. I then have to resort to utilizing some synonym of it. My name being 'poorenglishcel' is another symbol of my high inhibness. A low inhib person would just spew what ever shit comes to their mind irrespective of how stupid or how grammatical poor their language is. But in my case, i Just laid down my arms and surrendered even before i spoke a single word. Instead of others finding out about my poor linguistic skills, i let them know beforehand so that they don't think ill of me.

Lol i know it's kinda counter intuitive to type a long response to your post when i have already stated that i am really high inhib. But it's just that i really resonated with what you said soi had get all this weight off my chest.

Very relatable brocel. I took a long time to write the OP as well. Constantly making corrections and ovethinking how others are gonna percieve me. When the reality is no one cares about some random ass thread. Constantly so many threads are being made. My thread is just another one in the sea of many threads. I often times type some response and then proceed to delete all of it. I obsess over how i walk and pronouce my words. I get conscious of the swinging of my hands back and forth while walking and then i can't seem to move them in a natural manner. I avoid speaking certain words casue i fear i would pronouce them wrong. I then have to resort to utilizing some synonym of it. My name being 'poorenglishcel' is another symbol of my high inhibness. A low inhib person would just spew what ever shit comes to their mind irrespective of how stupid or how grammatical poor their language is. But in my case, i Just laid down my arms and surrendered even before i spoke a single word. Instead of others finding out about my poor linguistic skills, i let them know beforehand so that they don't think ill of me.

Lol i know it's kinda counter intuitive to type a long response to your post when i have already stated that i am really high inhib. But it's just that i really resonated with what you said soi had get all this weight off my chest.

Exactly. Especially social media. A few years ago I had a reddit account, any time I didn't see my comments didn't get upvoted within five minutes I immediately deleted them. I finally put some pressure on myself and somewhat got rid of it... But that's just social media. I'm still like that IRL. Don't know how to fix that.

 

[chalk son]

Whenever i hear my phone ringing my stomach starts to twist even though i know it would just be parents calling cause no one else knows about my eixstence.

relatable. yes i’m high inhib but i can “control” it to be less fixed and slightly loose depending on the situation i find myself in. for the most part i have to go out of my way to evade those situations