Afaik vaping causes holes in your lungs.
There's nothing I can do, He is functioning, he still works every day.
Really? I'm guessing that happens if you do it a lot, though. As I said, I barely drink or vape but it calms me nonetheless.
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Yes, I ain't afraid to admit it like people who smoke weed, highly functioning though. Just need a few drinks to dull my mind late at night and help me chill out and fall asleep
I was, but it made me feel like shit. I'm like one month sober.
YES IM DRUNK RIGHT NOW
Ive been thinking about starting to drink before I have to socialise with anyone But Idk whether to
It will probably just spiral into full on alcoholism which will only make my life worse But Im sick of constantly being neurotic when Im outside
life is much more comfortable after a few drinks And I am able to enjoy things alot more
Its brutal to think normies get to exist like that for free
Genetic destiny
What is he meant to do
Your lucky you can connect with him like that
I wish I could do the same but my dad stopped drinking now and he is somehow bluepilled
I know he had a rough life but he never really talks about it and anytime I try to mention the state of my life or anything About the fucked up nature of life he is still very bluepilled and dismissive of it
I told him the one time we’ve ever been drunk together about How I’m an incel and all that shit And he acted like it doesnt matter at all that I cant get any women and like it isnt as bad as it really is despite him always being more deppressed when He doesn’t have a gf
how much did you drink bro
Never had alcohol in my body, but i know at 100% that i would become alcoholic if i start drinking
I haven't seen a doctor in almost as long.
"Do you want to live?"
- "Would you call this life, what we're allowed these days?" (would be my answer).
no, my hand and feet burn the day after i drink it, it fucks with my nervous system i think
Almost became
I think alcohol is disgusting and has an awful taste. Everytime I've tried to drink I spit it instantly, all drugs feel like raping the mind. I thought this was a common incel pathology, but maybe I am wrong
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my dad was a drunk retard so i planned to stay away from alcohol forever. got through college never drinking/partying ever, worked my job diligently like a mindless zombie wageslave, and made it to the age of 25 sober and drug free. then life hit me hard out of fucking nowhere. i entered a spiral of depression when i realized how the world works. i planned to quit my job and spent my last weeks drinking on the job. i would go to a random conference room and watch trailer park boys while i got wasted.
one night i went to the roof of my building looking over the city, thinking i should just jump off. i saved up a good chunk of money from work and even fully paid off my student loans so financially speaking life was honestly kind of ok. i lived in a terrible shoebox apartment that was cheap and had very few possessions, just always trying to save money. i decided it would be stupid to die with money so i gave myself an ultimatum. i decided to spend all my money and i set out to live a "normal" life and try things that normies do like going to bars and shit. if it didn't turn out well, then i would just end it.
it started slow. i was unemployed and would go to bars a couple nights a week and try a couple random beers and practice socializing with people. i didn't understand my limits so a couple times i made it home and passed out, puking in my sleep and luckily not dying from it. my social skills improved dramatically, something i probably should have done earlier in life. alcohol made it so much easier and it was addicting. pretty soon i was going to bars almost every night and i would come home every night nearly blackout drunk and beyond depressed. i did this for over 2 years, accruing debt while unemployed and just not caring about my future anymore.
then it got worse. i realized it's so much cheaper to just buy alcohol from the store and drink at home. i would still go to bars but i would pregame at home. it started with having a case or two of drinks around then it exploded into my entire fridge basically being filled with alcohol so i would never run out. i stopped going to bars and every single night of the week i would get blackout drunk alone at home. strangely i got so used to it, like i would cook some pretty amazing meals and have 0 memory of doing it. a couple times i passed out and burned the fuck out of my food, but luckily i never started a fire.
finances were becoming a serious problem after spending so much on alcohol and being unemployed for almost 3 years, but i got lucky and got a new job that's easy and pays well. life was starting to turn around, but i still got drunk pretty much every night. then it escalated. i started drinking during the day. for a couple years the only liquid i would consume was alcohol. somehow i got away with being half drunk during the day and nobody at my job ever said anything or noticed i think. years go by and my finances are finally good again.
binge drinking every day has really taken a toll on my health. aside from it being nearly impossible to not gain weight when you consume almost 2k calories of alcohol a day, i can feel my body is starting to shut down. i have almost no energy when i wake up and sometimes i physically just can't function. this year has been brutal. i'm used to hangovers, but what i'm experiencing now isn't a hangover: it's heart disease.
i've stopped drinking as much, even going weeks or months without alcohol and i can feel my body healing when i do. however, i always slip back and start binge drinking again due to a holiday or some shit. everytime i do, i can feel myself getting closer to death. even as i write this now, i've had 50 drinks in the last 3 days, which is way, way too much.
one night i went to the roof of my building looking over the city, thinking i should just jump off. i saved up a good chunk of money from work and even fully paid off my student loans so financially speaking life was honestly kind of ok. i lived in a terrible shoebox apartment that was cheap and had very few possessions, just always trying to save money. i decided it would be stupid to die with money so i gave myself an ultimatum. i decided to spend all my money and i set out to live a "normal" life and try things that normies do like going to bars and shit. if it didn't turn out well, then i would just end it.
it started slow. i was unemployed and would go to bars a couple nights a week and try a couple random beers and practice socializing with people. i didn't understand my limits so a couple times i made it home and passed out, puking in my sleep and luckily not dying from it. my social skills improved dramatically, something i probably should have done earlier in life. alcohol made it so much easier and it was addicting. pretty soon i was going to bars almost every night and i would come home every night nearly blackout drunk and beyond depressed. i did this for over 2 years, accruing debt while unemployed and just not caring about my future anymore.
then it got worse. i realized it's so much cheaper to just buy alcohol from the store and drink at home. i would still go to bars but i would pregame at home. it started with having a case or two of drinks around then it exploded into my entire fridge basically being filled with alcohol so i would never run out. i stopped going to bars and every single night of the week i would get blackout drunk alone at home. strangely i got so used to it, like i would cook some pretty amazing meals and have 0 memory of doing it. a couple times i passed out and burned the fuck out of my food, but luckily i never started a fire.
finances were becoming a serious problem after spending so much on alcohol and being unemployed for almost 3 years, but i got lucky and got a new job that's easy and pays well. life was starting to turn around, but i still got drunk pretty much every night. then it escalated. i started drinking during the day. for a couple years the only liquid i would consume was alcohol. somehow i got away with being half drunk during the day and nobody at my job ever said anything or noticed i think. years go by and my finances are finally good again.
binge drinking every day has really taken a toll on my health. aside from it being nearly impossible to not gain weight when you consume almost 2k calories of alcohol a day, i can feel my body is starting to shut down. i have almost no energy when i wake up and sometimes i physically just can't function. this year has been brutal. i'm used to hangovers, but what i'm experiencing now isn't a hangover: it's heart disease.
i've stopped drinking as much, even going weeks or months without alcohol and i can feel my body healing when i do. however, i always slip back and start binge drinking again due to a holiday or some shit. everytime i do, i can feel myself getting closer to death. even as i write this now, i've had 50 drinks in the last 3 days, which is way, way too much.
i used to think this but then i discovered there are alcoholic bevereges that don't have that revolting ethanol taste and are actually pretty tasty. when you make this discovery it becomes a battle of the will to not get hooked
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