qbicus
subhuman spicel
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- Joined
- Sep 23, 2023
- Posts
- 437
I have extreme hatred and low self esteem for myself that existing is so tiring I want beauty not this shallow lift style of mindless consuming and mental fatigue that reduces my mind to basic instincts and cognitive disassociation. It's getting worse over time. I have a few distant friends who are able to shitpost and remain informative rather than result to repetitive humor. I just sit like an idiot on vc with nothing to say because brain dead half the time which is the reason I don't feel like I belong anywhere socially.