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It's been 8 years since I have realized that it was over because of me being a short Arabcel, probably since 2016 when I first was part of the r/incels subreddit before it was banned.
Time flies.
Fast-forward to today, I am 28 years old. I work a career with a very specialized skillset, getting paid almost 120K a year. I'm quite good at it too, and I've had people unironically tell me that I was an inspiration or a mentor to them. I have all the income I ever need to live a decent life. I'm not as fit as I was when I was gymcelling at 23, but my appearance hasn't really changed that much with clothes on.
Despite all of this, I am no different sexually or romantically than I was when I was sitting there at 18 years old, realizing how over it was because of my genetic characteristics. My professional success did not result in any success in my personal life. Outside of work, I'm a ghost with no social life. Your average 18 year old probably has more relationship/sexual experience than I do. I'm getting to the age of no return now, where it is actually weird that I have spent this much time alone and with no girlfriend. A younger woman is not going to want me because I'm too old, and I'm not a tall white guy. An older woman is not going to want me because she has no time to teach a mature man basic things that he should have already learned growing up.
The guy who sees me as a mentor probably doesn't realize that I see himself as more successful, because they have a girlfriend and a social life where people like him. Outside of my skills and professional aptitude, I am nothing.
At this point I don't know where to go. I don't really care about my job despite being good at it. I was considering seeing how much I can save up and maybe leave the country, live somewhere that's cheap. I've seen escorts over the years but nowadays especially it's a hassle, and most escorts have moved on to Onlyfans so there aren't many good ones around. And sugar babying is outside of my limits, because I'm not some old stock Canadian boomer that has four rental properties.
So is anyone else in the same spot? How are you faring so far?
Time flies.
Fast-forward to today, I am 28 years old. I work a career with a very specialized skillset, getting paid almost 120K a year. I'm quite good at it too, and I've had people unironically tell me that I was an inspiration or a mentor to them. I have all the income I ever need to live a decent life. I'm not as fit as I was when I was gymcelling at 23, but my appearance hasn't really changed that much with clothes on.
Despite all of this, I am no different sexually or romantically than I was when I was sitting there at 18 years old, realizing how over it was because of my genetic characteristics. My professional success did not result in any success in my personal life. Outside of work, I'm a ghost with no social life. Your average 18 year old probably has more relationship/sexual experience than I do. I'm getting to the age of no return now, where it is actually weird that I have spent this much time alone and with no girlfriend. A younger woman is not going to want me because I'm too old, and I'm not a tall white guy. An older woman is not going to want me because she has no time to teach a mature man basic things that he should have already learned growing up.
The guy who sees me as a mentor probably doesn't realize that I see himself as more successful, because they have a girlfriend and a social life where people like him. Outside of my skills and professional aptitude, I am nothing.
At this point I don't know where to go. I don't really care about my job despite being good at it. I was considering seeing how much I can save up and maybe leave the country, live somewhere that's cheap. I've seen escorts over the years but nowadays especially it's a hassle, and most escorts have moved on to Onlyfans so there aren't many good ones around. And sugar babying is outside of my limits, because I'm not some old stock Canadian boomer that has four rental properties.
So is anyone else in the same spot? How are you faring so far?
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