SuicideFuel Anyone else get depressed looking at childhood photos?

[superighteous]

Looking at childhood photos is such torture. Although cathartic and bittersweet, seeing how carefree and full of love to give I was makes me want to slam my fists in a jealous fit. Pictures of me running around in a lion costume, another one of myself with a spaghetti covered goofy grin. One in which I’m jumping from couch to couch dressed as Superman, pretending to fly. When did such an active and colorful mind turn so grey? They said I would be a lady killer, that I would break a lot of hearts. Look where I am now. My past self would be so disappointed in who I am today. I want to go back. Fuck

 

[RageAgainstTDL]

So depressing. I try not to think too much about the past. It's painful.

 

[Unwanted]

I still think about my oneitis from when I was 7-8 to this day still, at least once a week. I doubt she even remembers me now..

 

[Void]

I was white and cute when I was a kid, now for some reason my skin is pretty dark. It's depressing considering how completely different I look back then, now I'm a borderline triad thug.

 

[Hunter]

PMO took away my childhood

 

[SoCalSuifuel]

100%, you look at a childhood photo of me, a little blonde boy with blue eyes, and one would think that this cute little kid would go on to live a good life. But nope, acne, balding, horrible frame, and so many more things have turned my life into such a nightmare. It's the most depressing thing in the world to have peaked as a five year old.

PMO took away my childhood

What's your life currently like now that you've been on nofap for awhile? I'm only two weeks now and it's making me miserable, angry, horny, irritable.

 

[Onezero]

It's hard to believe I'm the same person as that kid who was smiling without a care in the world.

 

[Stoiccel]

Puberty fucked me.

 

[FrothySolutions]

PMO took away my childhood

What is PMO and how did it take away your childhood?

As for me, yes, it's very sad looking at pictures of when I was a teenager. Because I had so much more hair back then.

 

[Hunter]

What's your life currently like now that you've been on nofap for awhile? I'm only two weeks now and it's making me miserable, angry, horny, irritable.

not much difference since im on 10 days atm. more brooding and self-loathing than usual which tends to happen to me on the first 20 days. after that i get a confidence boost though and the real changes start after day 30.

What is PMO and how did it take away your childhood?

As for me, yes, it's very sad looking at pictures of when I was a teenager. Because I had so much more hair back then.

PMO(Porn, Masturbation and Orgasms) basically when i started wanking. before PMO, even when i was 13 i was happy and pretty much had everything going for me.

 

[SoCalSuifuel]

not much difference since im on 10 days atm. more brooding and self-loathing than usual which tends to happen to me on the first 20 days. after that i get a confidence boost though and the real changes start after day 30.


PMO(Porn, Masturbation and Orgasms) basically when i started wanking. before PMO, even when i was 13 i was happy and pretty much had everything going for me.

Why are you only on ten days? And can you just give me one or two specific things in your life that actually improved?

 

[Ignas]

Yes. How I still have the exact babyface until now torture me inside

 

[mangoboy]

My childhood was sad af but at least I had hope for the future. Optimism driven by naïveté and passion. That’s all gone now, and I just want to die.

 

[tehgymcel420]

My hair was straighter when I was a kid, now it's carpet textured.

 

[Weed]

Yes, those were times when my chin wasn't fucked.

 

[Hunter]

Why are you only on ten days? And can you just give me one or two specific things in your life that actually improved?

relapsed about 10 days ago. after day 30 i got much hornier, boosted confidence, clear skin with no visible acne and removal of brain fog.

 

[Fontaine]

When I look at my smiling child self, I merely think "boy, were you in for a lot of trouble..."

 

[TheOnlyWei]

Yes. How I still have the exact babyface until now torture me inside

Same. I was a really cute kid, but that does not translate well as an adult.

 

[superighteous]

lmfao i wanted to die when i was like 8, i remember holding a massive kitchen knife to my chest
bc i didnt rly know any other good suicide methods

Suicidal thoughts started to plague my mind when I was 12. I wish we knew our bliss was fleeting so we could know how good we had it. Happiness was all that life was to me, I never knew any different, nor did I think there was anything else. So naive.

 

[SoCalSuifuel]

relapsed about 10 days ago. after day 30 i got much hornier, boosted confidence, clear skin with no visible acne and removal of brain fog.

If the benefits were real, wouldn't they have outweighed your horniness?

 

[Life Wasted]

I have literally been brought to tears looking at my childhood photos.

 

[superighteous]

I have literally been brought to tears looking at my childhood photos.

I have as well.

 

[Deleted member 5861]

I have literally been brought to tears looking at my childhood photos.

 

[Hunter]

If the benefits were real, wouldn't they have outweighed your horniness?

why would they do that?

 

[Haywire]

yes. also a disappointment.

 

[Evil Genius]

My hair was straighter when I was a kid, now it's carpet textured.

what if you shaved it? would you look uglier?

 

[It's All Genetics]

I look back and see the times before I realised everything was bullshit and became filled with rage.

 

[Deleted member 7573]

Always, simpler times, my future seemed boring but at least accurate at that time, I would never have imagined that this would be my destiny, until today the best sensations I had were in childhood before adolescence, stupid things like waking up on a Saturday morning and accompanying my father to the newsstand to buy the newspaper seem to be the best moments of my life, I thought my future would be to do the same with my son and at the time I thought it was kind of a stupid, but now those who can share it I considered the luckiest people on this planet, I'll die alone without anyone, I'll rot and even those good memories of my childhood will cease to exist.

 

[FiveFourManlet]

I was depressed as a kid

 

[Deleted member 5712]

Not by my own choice as I don't keep photos of me when I was a child or younger than I am now. I have a pic of my Mom & Dad that I always keep with me but that's all.

But every few months my Mom gets in a nostalgic mood and goes through our old photos. She always likes to open my door and shout things at me and sometimes forces photos in my face when I'm just trying to fucking watch anime or play vidya
OMG look son! Look how handsome you used to be
OMG son! Look at your hair. You used to have such good hair back then....
OMG son come quick! Son! Son! Son? COME AND LOOK AT THIS SHIRT YOU USED TO HAVE THAT WAS PERFECT ON YOU

Just more of that same shit over and over for an hour or two. I dread those days. Really annoying. If she is sad how I turned out i don't think she realizes I feel x1000 times worse than she does.

 

[pooty]

I remeber having a huge birthday party with all my classmates when I was 7. Now my birthday is just spent with my mum and dad..

 

[TomathonClancy]

When I was a baby I had pretty fair skin. Bringing this up to my mom, she got really sad because she knew that the next thing I'd say was why I had to end up being ugly and brown.

 

[Mainländer]

Yes. I was possibly a 6/10 as a kid. Now a 3.5/10.

I had pale white perfect skin, good-looking hair, a small cute nose, cute eye area and was always tall for my age.

Puberty fucked me up sideways and baldness finished the job.

 

[armis]

Lucky for me I dont have any