Brutal Anyone else had strict abusive parents during childhood?

[uglyugly]

When I think about my childhood I can only remember my parents screaming at me, taking my shit away and sometimes slapping me.
They threw away my playstation games because my brother said something racist to a black kid in school.
My dad beat me because I said I wanted to leave the curtains open (makes no sense I know)
Bullying at school, bad grades and abusive parents made me suicidal when I was 15 year old, I started skipping school hiding in the garage until my parents left the house to go to work.
I think this is one of the things that made me turn into an incel.

 

[idiot_cel]

Very on both

 

[uglyugly]

Very on both

Brutal

 

[Neptune30]

my dad beat me too, the old hot wheel race car slot track. School too was bullied fuckn gap between my teeth still don’t smile to this day.

 

[drowningindenial]

Yeah kinda. Never got beaten, it was more of a psychologica thing. Since i was a kid i had an extreme fear of dark places and dolls and my father trapped me inside a dark room with my sister dolls inside and locked the door as a ''punishment''. Things like that, I don't remember all but this one i remember to this day for some reason.

 

[brazi]

i was also suicidal since i was 15. my bitch evil foid mom threatened me that she will kill herself every day which gave me panic attacks and shit and the panic still stuck with me and i get dreams with such panic till now. and she and her siblings gang up and abuse and bully me cuz my downie dad did not give them money.
beating was another thing. i got chased out of the house for a whole night by my downie dad. when i was less than 12, he removed my clothes and made me stay out for some hours at night. my mom did nothing to stop. she was watching me with a smirk.

 

[Shigeru Miyamoto]

yes they did all that + beat me physically a lot and justify it to this day by saying "well i was hit as a kid and i turned out fine!".

I want to fucking die man this is hell

 

[uglyugly]

yes they did all that + beat me physically a lot and justify it to this day by saying "well i was hit as a kid and i turned out fine!".

I want to fucking die man this is hell

Yeah my parents not only justify it but they're also proud of it. One day my mom said "I didn't beat you enough."

 

[Foremostfiend]

Dad left but my shemon mom emotionally abused my sister and I and continues to manipulate the family into thinking I'm the bad guy. I hate foids mostly because of her and people scream mommy issues admitting foids are the problem. They always are.

 

[Ci Jey]

Never got beaten but my family is very religious and strict
JFL at tradcucks who shill for conservatism

 

[despisedpaul]

My mom was nice but she divorced my dad and married a mean army guy. This guy screamed at me and made fun of me for being a nerd boy with no friends and also for being weird. I would always cry on the couch while I fell asleep because army guy could not afford a house with a room for me. To this day I am worthless in my mind because of what mean screaming army guy said to scared little boy.

 

[Shigeru Miyamoto]

Yeah my parents not only justify it but they're also proud of it. One day my mom said "I didn't beat you enough."

Holy fuck I'm so sorry they did that to you, that must feel so hurtful and invalidating. I dont get why so many people are pro suffering and defend it at all costs.

 

[Shigeru Miyamoto]

Plus theres a whole treaure trove of research proving how harmful abusing your child is (to the surprise of no one with an iq above 90)

 

[uglyugly]

Holy fuck I'm so sorry they did that to you, that must feel so hurtful and invalidating. I dont get why so many people are pro suffering and defend it at all costs.

I'm okay now, my parents got less aggressive over time. I guess they're more understanding of my issues now.

 

[uglyugly]

My mom was nice but she divorced my dad and married a mean army guy. This guy screamed at me and made fun of me for being a nerd boy with no friends and also for being weird. I would always cry on the couch while I fell asleep because army guy could not afford a house with a room for me. To this day I am worthless in my mind because of what mean screaming army guy said to scared little boy.

Army faggots like to pretend they're a drill instructor when dealing with weaker vulnerable people. Pure evil.

 

[Shigeru Miyamoto]

I'm okay now, my parents got less aggressive over time. I guess they're more understanding of my issues now.

thats good to hear at least. i hope things get better for you (and everyone else in this thread). I've been slowly processing it myself and sort of beginning to accept it, much in the same way that i've more or less accepted being incel and sub 5 (as painful as it is)

 

[faded]

When I think about my childhood I can only remember my parents screaming at me, taking my shit away and sometimes slapping me.
They threw away my playstation games because my brother said something racist to a black kid in school.
My dad beat me because I said I wanted to leave the curtains open (makes no sense I know)
Bullying at school, bad grades and abusive parents made me suicidal when I was 15 year old, I started skipping school hiding in the garage until my parents left the house to go to work.
I think this is one of the things that made me turn into an incel.

Kys faggot my parents were lenient and I’m still incel

 

[despisedpaul]

I'm okay now, my parents got less aggressive over time. I guess they're more understanding of my issues now.

I am a stranger to my family in my own house now. They are all too guilt-ridden from causing me to live my entire life in pain to even try to form a relationship with the adult me. They literally act like I am some random at the gas station.

 

[uglyugly]

I am a stranger to my family in my own house now. They are all too guilt-ridden from causing me to live my entire life in pain to even try to form a relationship with the adult me. They literally act like I am some random at the gas station.

When my parents stopped being abusive and started treating me well it felt so unnatural to me.

 

[uglyugly]

Kys faggot my parents were lenient and I’m still incel

Okay faded

 

[despisedpaul]

When my parents stopped being abusive and started treating me well it felt so unnatural to me.

For real. The only love I have ever known my entire life was abuse and hate and now I just have nothing but painful remnants.

 

[uglyugly]

For real. The only love I have ever known my entire life was abuse and hate and now I just have nothing but painful remnants.

I'm sorry that happened to you brocel

 

[sinclair_silence]

Army faggots like to pretend they're a drill instructor when dealing with weaker vulnerable people. Pure evil.

While they do the bidding of the feminist American government that cares nothing for the incel problem. Some veterans are real heroes, but clearly not all of them.

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Yess

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Yes I have strict overprotective abusive parents

 

[CircumcisedClown]

Never got beaten but my family is very religious and strict
JFL at tradcucks who shill for conservatism

My parents are both of those things and still beat me on occasions.

 

[CircumcisedClown]

I used to pray to God at night to bring me new parents or that my parents would despawn. I thought about sewersliding multiple times at a young age. In some ways I wanted to do it just to get back at them.

I wanted it to make them sad, but honestly, they’re such fucking narcissists, it probably wouldn’t even. My mom would probably love all the attention she’d get before, during, and after the funeral. She’d be mad at me for the embarrassment I’d bring her as the mom of a son who played The Ronnie McNutt: VR Experience video game. She wouldn’t really care that I was gone. She has other kids anyways.

Now I genuinely feel nothing for them as an adult, but my anger is not deep enough to bring me to cut them off. My desire for whatever little inheritance I might get is stronger than the desire to prove some point to some old fucks I don’t even care about. So I visit, tell them I love them, and I secretly hope father time does his job soon.

The worst part is, we had everything we needed to live a good, happy life (at least until puberty when my ugliness ruined other aspects of my life). We lived in a nice area. We had money. We had food. We had a nice house. We could’ve enjoyed things.

But my parents were such narcissistic, Puritan freaks that it ruined everything. I remember my friend who’s dad died in 6th grade, and everyone felt so bad for him. I thought he was lucky as fuck. Holy shit. He gets to live without a dad. Sounds fucking awesome (to me at the time).

My would have unironically been better if my parents pulled a Thomas/Martha Wayne on me. The fat insurance money would have got me to adulthood, and my god parents are way more chill than my real parents.

People always say you must be a sick, fucked up kid if you want your parents to disappear. But imagine what sick, fucked up parents you must be if your kid feels that way. Kids are terrified of losing their parents by default. You really fucked up if your kid feels the opposite, but nobody cares. Parents are worshipped in scam society because they need to be. They provide a constant influx of wage slaves, which are a necessary resource.

 

[Indari]

yea

 

[vu79sOiwUAGG]

The worst part is, we had everything we needed to live a good, happy life (at least until puberty when my ugliness ruined other aspects of my life). We lived in a nice area. We had money. We had food. We had a nice house. We could’ve enjoyed things.

Now I genuinely feel nothing for them as an adult, but my anger is not deep enough to bring me to cut them off.

The only love I have ever known my entire life was abuse and hate and now I just have nothing but painful remnants.

When my parents stopped being abusive and started treating me well it felt so unnatural to me.

my parents got less aggressive over time.

To this day I am worthless in my mind because of what mean screaming army guy said to scared little boy.

made fun of me for being a nerd boy with no friends and also for being weird

my mom did nothing to stop. she was watching me with a smirk.

Things like that, I don't remember all

When I think about my childhood I can only remember my parents screaming at me, taking my shit away and sometimes slapping me.

My dad beat me because I said I wanted to leave the curtains open (makes no sense I know)

I see lots of people ITT who have similar experiences as me. just reading through this thread was fucking intense emotions coming out this have never happened before. tears rolling down my eyes like a bitch, im 24 years old and havent full on cried in years

Making a friendly request to brocels ITT to read my post about this. No compulsion to, and the video is long so you can save it for later, I just want to share something that is helping me get over the feeling of being a "broken" human by childhood abuse

How healing from an abusive childhood I didn't remember I had (complex trauma) fixed my life

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to this day i dont think i deserved it. i was a good kid, got good grades, made friends, read books. school was the highlight of my day because after that i had to come back to a house i didnt feel at ease/safe in. dad was the "sigma alpha provider" type was absent most of the time and even when he was there he was distant and pushed me away and made me feel like i was sensitive/weird/soft when i tried to connect with him. he was very unpredictable and quick to anger and used to get violent with me real fast. i never played a single sport or did a single activity with my father in my life. my mother was neurotic, anxious and controlling and wanted to live vicariously through my achievements. she was obsessed with image and manupilated me into needing her approval. my "aspirations" were hers and i never had my own identity. she never stopped the physical abuse and did a lot herself- but my dads beatings were more out of rage than just going over the line trying to correct a child. i was a high IQ slightly 'tistic kid and they always put me down and made me feel that i was soft, weird and oversensitive every time i tried to connect with them. mother always robbed me of feeling masculine. both always put others down and put me down and i never felt comfortable talking to them 100% honest about anything i faced in school etc . at that point i developed 2 personalities- the home one that was what they expected so i wouldnt get hurt, and my actual personality. they made me feel like i was weird and unwanted by putting me in tuition(jeet culture to put kids into after-school tutoring classes) and i had no time left to hang out with anyone my age outside of school. they weren't out of a village- they came from highly educated upper class christian(westernised) backgrounds. they definitely had the tools to learn how to raise children right. every negative of my personality as an adult was directly because of my childhood abuse

if anyone on .is saw me in real life they would call me a fakecel because im really good looking(and 5'10 and good frame), i often get attention and looks from women. but because of the damage they caused to my soul, my self esteem was so low that i thought i was maybe gay because how could one be so genetically gifted and not talk to women? im surely gay or something?(ive never watched gay porn in my life). i could not talk to women without being paranoid and anxious and flight response from feeling "unsafe". most people who know me IRL think im gay because of how non-confrontational i am and how i avoid women, along with cluster C traits that come across as feminine

 

[InceldianWarrior]

to this day i dont think i deserved it. i was a good kid, got good grades, made friends, read books. school was the highlight of my day because after that i had to come back to a house i didnt feel at ease/safe in. dad was the "sigma alpha provider" type was absent most of the time and even when he was there he was distant and pushed me away and made me feel like i was sensitive/weird/soft when i tried to connect with him. he was very unpredictable and quick to anger and used to get violent with me real fast. i never played a single sport or did a single activity with my father in my life. my mother was neurotic, anxious and controlling and wanted to live vicariously through my achievements. she was obsessed with image and manupilated me into needing her approval. my "aspirations" were hers and i never had my own identity. she never stopped the physical abuse and did a lot herself- but my dads beatings were more out of rage than just going over the line trying to correct a child. i was a high IQ slightly 'tistic kid and they always put me down and made me feel that i was soft, weird and oversensitive every time i tried to connect with them. both always put others down and put me down and i never felt comfortable talking to them 100% honest about anything i faced in school etc . at that point i developed 2 personalities- the home one that was what they expected so i wouldnt get hurt, and my actual personality. they made me feel like i was weird and unwanted by putting me in tuition(jeet culture to put kids into after-school tutoring classes) and i had no time left to hang out with anyone my age outside of school. they weren't out of a village- they came from highly educated upper class christian(westernised) backgrounds. they definitely had the tools to learn how to raise children right. every negative of my personality as an adult was directly because of my childhood abuse

brutal, relatable but I also disliked school. It didn't get physical that often but maybe it's just because we barely ever interacted even at home.
My mother was different, she wasn't as controlling as yours, but she was neglectful too.

 

[lifesucksandyoudie]

My parents tried to pressure me to make me more 'normal' and less neurodivergent and I hated them for it.

 

[SalveMatteo]

Fuck Unloving Parents in general

 

[AsiaCel]

Not me my parents were relaxed

 

[demisecel]

yeah my parents were very abusive physically and psychologically. my dad is trying be better now im 20 years old. but the last time he attack me i was 16 he pulled a knife on me and then he gave me the knife and told me to kill him. and he and my mum beat me often for showing any strong emotion (laughing crying angry etc.) since i was around 5. no wonder i was self harming since i was 6 without realising. the pain from cutting myself helped distract the emmotional pain. weed helped sincei was 13 i smoked and did it as well as bunch of other drugs. i hope normies suffer the same way i did. especially those who mock without understanding the pain.

 

[The Darkcel]

Sorta? My dad had major alcoholic-ensued anger issues in which he'd take out on me, usually over very minuscule shit like pissing my pants or being loud on video games. Had my toys that he bought get broken, one time on the same day he bought it for me. In retrospect, I feel bad for my dad, but he's long gone (died back in 2007) so I don't have any resentment toward him. His life was hard and my mom made him crazy, especially after divorcing him. Fuck foids.