SuicideFuel Another ropefuel day for me

[saito.]

Today is a very important day in my country because the results of our national high school leaving exam are being announced. It’s the exam that determines whether you graduate from high school, similar to high school graduation in the U.S.

Today, everyone is out celebrating. People are in the streets, going to clubs with their friends, and guys are celebrating with their girlfriends or hanging out with their friends. Meanwhile, I’m at home alone, listening to music because I don’t have any friends or even a girlfriend. Everywhere I look, people are happy. I wish I could be like them—a normal teenager, celebrating and living in the moment without worrying about tomorrow.

Last year, it was my turn. I took this exam too, but I didn’t celebrate anything. I had no one to celebrate with. I was just at home with my mother, who was happy for me. No one invited me. No one thought about me. Sometimes, I wish I had never been born if this is what my life was going to be like—living in complete loneliness.

The part that hurts me the most is knowing that I’ll never get those years back. I can never go back and experience those moments the way everyone else did. I’ll never get the chance to build those friendships while growing up because I spent my entire adolescence in complete isolation and loneliness. I’ll never get to have that typical neurotypical teenage life because, for me, it never even began. I’ll never be like everyone else.

 

[Cryo]

Hm, alright

 

[The Death Devil]

I've wondered the same exact thing. Someone once told me about how they had friends that were going out drinking and partying to celebrate graduating high school, and I couldn't help but reminisce on what my own graduation was like.

That is to say, 'twasn't anything important—and I did nothing in particular. I 'graduated,' went home, and slept. Meanwhile, other people my age were out celebrating with their families and making a massive fuss out of the matter. What's really strange is that I would have been considered the odd one for not caring about it or doing anything in celebration since, as people love to say, those are the prime years of your life and it's a 'significant milestone.'

And yet, I did nothing.

And in the future, whenever I graduate anything again, I will continue to do nothing. Because there is nothing to do.

There is no cause for celebration—save for perhaps the relief of not having to socialize with anyone anymore—as its not any major accomplishment or signals prosperity to come. Ultimately, you graduate and then go on to wageslave your life away, no? How is that a reason to celebrate?

I think that normroaches are just looking for any reason to go out drinking and partying, really, and to go out with their friends and indulge themselves in decadent pleasures with the excuse that it is 'celebration.' That's probably what it is in reality.

 

[yakusai]

Did you pass?

 

[NickelodeonCel]

It's truly brutal we will never ever get those years back.