Driving around for my low status job in a world i have nothing to do in again 
it feels eerie being exposed to so much places, people and things only for everything to seem like a reflection of my failures in this terminally neoliberal competitive society wherein people are bound to suck as it's a postmodern shithole without any values left, i hate them for the estrangement from life itself they force upon me by being such pieces of shit.
Most of the time i cant take it, all the commotion, inner ugliness made form and noise but today it feels like a blessing. I have so much things on my mind after fighting with a relative - last line before complete alienation - that was just made in the image of this world : a hypocritical, duplicitous, malignant ignorant CUNT. I didn't even talk with this femoid of a sister that much and regret reaching out to her.
But here's the twist : it's this world that actually hates me for having the whole package : an outwardly low status, ugly and now older man. As experience showed me indifference is really the best thing i can wish for cause people truly look down on and despise you.
it feels eerie being exposed to so much places, people and things only for everything to seem like a reflection of my failures in this terminally neoliberal competitive society wherein people are bound to suck as it's a postmodern shithole without any values left, i hate them for the estrangement from life itself they force upon me by being such pieces of shit.Most of the time i cant take it, all the commotion, inner ugliness made form and noise but today it feels like a blessing. I have so much things on my mind after fighting with a relative - last line before complete alienation - that was just made in the image of this world : a hypocritical, duplicitous, malignant ignorant CUNT.
I didn't even talk with this femoid of a sister that much and regret reaching out to her.But here's the twist : it's this world that actually hates me for having the whole package : an outwardly low status, ugly and now older man. As experience showed me indifference is really the best thing i can wish for cause people truly look down on and despise you.
