I cannot bring myself to do it anymore, I cannot bring myself to even jerk off anymore.
Only can I feel nothing but disgust and rage, both disgust at myself and rage at the foids who've caused me to resort to this.
Recently i've heard of a story where teenagers had a massive school sleepover wherein alot of them ended up having sex and you guessed it! Pregnancies occurred.
I hate it, I hate being reminded of what I lack so I clicked off the video talking about it but the memories just couldn't stop.
A guy I knew and grew up with since I was around 2 years old, both me and him in a group amongst 2 others, and how we all drifted apart over the years.
When he was around 11 years old he ended up having sex with the foid who lived in my house, and if you're wondering who this foid is well she is the daughter of my birthvessels friend, during the time both he and I even her lived under the same house and things took a turn towards the wrong path.
When we were around he was cold towards her and I can remember this one line from him that to this day still makes me laugh "Be grateful I'm even giving you a cookie you bitch." Untill afterwards he was discovered in the closet with her naked, he 11 and her 10, how is this possible for a man to win in life at such an early age, Even after clicking on that video these stupid memories kept pouring in.
And towards the time we had stopped speaking or seeing each other, no longer did he live in the same house as me but he showed me on his phone.
"Manofvengeance look, this foid is saying we could fuck on the first day of being together if I want, what a whore right?"
i responded back with yeah she's a whore. I'm being reminded of what I lack.
We are younger when this happened and I was thinking to myself "maybe this will naturally come to me soon right? I'm sure the golden years of my life will be that of a memorable one."
The memory of when I saw his birthvessel on the bed playing chess naked with a married man from the closet when I was around 10 years old, It intrigued me but she could see my cheeky self peaking through the door and threw me out. Even in that moment I was being reminded of what I lacked.
For a response to my younger self, Yes it was a memorable one but not one you like remembering, they're reoccurring embarrassing and unfortunate events that always haunt you even when you're trying to sleep.
Everyone was having sex around me and I mean everyone, I was around 11 years old when I had seen my brother have sex with his foidfriend, my eyes widened with what was being burnt into my retina's. I'm being reminded of what I lack yet again.
I ended up walking into them both having sex a couple more times, one where he even had made horse noises. Reminded of what I lack for the 100th time This is not something a young boy should be viewing before his very own eyes right?
Sex was embedded into my mind, sex, sex sex it's all I'd ever think about.
I was around 10 years old, I did not know how to do self-pleasure yet despite all the porn I had watched during those years, which I'll admit is completely insignificant in comparision to now but still an abundant amount for a boy at that age.
Opened up a suitcase I did, stumbled upon a CD I did, after scavenging for random stuff due to my boredom I had found gold, GOLD!
I whipped that thing open and saw that the CD was still inside YES, YES YES!! but unfortunately for me it's not like I could legitimately play that on the DVD player in my room because then i'd be caught, not exactly a good idea.
So I decide to look at the back of the CD case and saw just the material I needed.
I headed inside of the bathroom, my first time ever relieving myself and I had done it then and there.
This is only temporary right? I'll only have to use my right hand for a small period of time before a foid comes my way and I finally won't have to use it anymore right?
Surely that day will come right?? Oh how mistaken I was.
And on this day, after all of what I had seen, what I had watched and currently what I was watching I remembered all of it.
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It goes on and on and on, I started to feel numb.
Then the thoughts set in:
*They get to experience carnal pleasure through intercourse with one another and I don't)
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*I have to use my hand as a faux substitute, a piss poor attempt at imitative reproduction*
I can't do this anymore, pretending i'm the one on the receiving end of the blowjob, pretending i'm the one having sex.
I click off the video and I go straight to gore, I go straight to videos where foids are inflicted with severe physical and mental pain
Somewhat the only thing that will ever make me feel good in this world is seeing the opposite gender of me being beaten assaulted in any way shape or form possible.
A foid wants to provoke me all the timeee everysingle time of the day, but they wouldn't say that to the current me not to his face.
Because if they did I'd make the case of junko furuta look like childs play.
Foids never given me a chance, they've never shown me mercy so just what mercy should I have for them? I shouldn't have any, currently I don't and I never will.
My cope is gone, foids ruined my brotherhood and sexhavers have ruined my life.
Foids have caused me to resort to self pleasure over just the idea of ascension.
Foids have deprived me of what it's like to live, Both sex life and even emotions like joy.
A foid and normie had seen my penis when I was around 12 years old whilst I was walking and I didn't even realize my pants were down.
They were recording me, laughing so hard and as I turnt around it got even worse, my penis in the flesh, recorded by them.
Before I knew it there were groups of foids hurdled together watching over a phone with what I presume to be the video of my penis out on display.
I know this because some of them glanced over at me, giving me such dirty looks.
FOIDS HAD ENCOUNTERED ME IN THE CAFETERIA, BUT THESE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE MY CLASSMATES, GIGGLED YELLING MY NAME PUSHING ME AGAINST THE WALL, WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK, I WAS STANDING IN LINE MINDING MY FUCKING BUSINESS AND THESE FOIDS HAD PHYSICALLY ASSAULTED LITTLE MANOFVENGEANCE THINKING IT WAS A FUNNY THING TO DO.
FUCK THESE GOD DAMN HOES, I HOPE THAT BLONDIE BITCH IS A SINGLE ROASTIE AND ENDS UP IN A BATHTUB OF HER OWN BLOOD WITH A RAZORBLADE ON THE GROUND, THAT BITCH DESERVES TO DIE!
And again this is not the only things they've done to me, I was not even allowed to live!
YOU LUCKY FOIDS OF BITCHES, YOU ARE LUCKY I WAS HIGH INHIB AND RETARDED BACK THEN, OTHERWISE I'D HAVE FUCKING CHIPPED YOUR TEETH OUT. BUT TEST ME NOW WHORES, TRY TO FUCK WITH ME NOW AND I'LL SHOW YOU WHY MY NAME IS MANOFVENGEANCE IN THE FIRST PLACE YOU FUCKING REPUGNANT BEEF CURTAIN PUSSY RIDDLED SLUT FOIDS.
IT'S NOT LIKE I COULDN'T HAVE KILLED THOSE FOIDS THEN AND THERE, I JUST DIDN'T HIT THEM AT THE TIME BECAUSE I WANTED TO AVOID TROUBLE, IT'S SEEN AS A SOCIALLY BAD THING FOR A MAN TO DEFEND HIMSELF RIGHT? RIGHT??? I WAS PUNISHED FOR DEFENDING MYSELF AS A KID, BUT I SURE DID BEAT THE FUCK OUT OF FOIDS AT HOME. I AM NOT WEAK, I AM A TOP TIER PHYSICAL SPECIMEN, GOING AS FAR TO SAY I AM A UNIT. GOD HAS NOT GIVETH ME LOOKS BUT HE HAS GIVETH ME POWER, AND POWER THAT I WILL USE TO DISPLAY MY DOMINANCE IF YOU FOIDS WANT A KNUCKLE SANDWHICH.
Foids have ruined every aspect of living for me.
I should hate them, I should want to tear them to pieces.
They want to fuck with me untill they get a fair share of the pain I feel, but no how many times a foid is raped, no how many how many times a foid is beaten, it still won't even amount to a fucking spec of what I went through, and on this thread i've not even went into full depth about the attrocities done to me by foids, sexhavers, normies and this entire god damn fucking world.
I'm such a fucking gentleman with all the patience i've had with these bastards, BUT I'VE HAD IT UP TO HERE WITH THESE FUCKS. DAMN THEM TO HELL.
Only can I feel nothing but disgust and rage, both disgust at myself and rage at the foids who've caused me to resort to this.
Recently i've heard of a story where teenagers had a massive school sleepover wherein alot of them ended up having sex and you guessed it! Pregnancies occurred.
I hate it, I hate being reminded of what I lack so I clicked off the video talking about it but the memories just couldn't stop.
A guy I knew and grew up with since I was around 2 years old, both me and him in a group amongst 2 others, and how we all drifted apart over the years.
When he was around 11 years old he ended up having sex with the foid who lived in my house, and if you're wondering who this foid is well she is the daughter of my birthvessels friend, during the time both he and I even her lived under the same house and things took a turn towards the wrong path.
When we were around he was cold towards her and I can remember this one line from him that to this day still makes me laugh "Be grateful I'm even giving you a cookie you bitch." Untill afterwards he was discovered in the closet with her naked, he 11 and her 10, how is this possible for a man to win in life at such an early age, Even after clicking on that video these stupid memories kept pouring in.
And towards the time we had stopped speaking or seeing each other, no longer did he live in the same house as me but he showed me on his phone.
"Manofvengeance look, this foid is saying we could fuck on the first day of being together if I want, what a whore right?"
i responded back with yeah she's a whore. I'm being reminded of what I lack.
We are younger when this happened and I was thinking to myself "maybe this will naturally come to me soon right? I'm sure the golden years of my life will be that of a memorable one."
The memory of when I saw his birthvessel on the bed playing chess naked with a married man from the closet when I was around 10 years old, It intrigued me but she could see my cheeky self peaking through the door and threw me out. Even in that moment I was being reminded of what I lacked.
For a response to my younger self, Yes it was a memorable one but not one you like remembering, they're reoccurring embarrassing and unfortunate events that always haunt you even when you're trying to sleep.
Everyone was having sex around me and I mean everyone, I was around 11 years old when I had seen my brother have sex with his foidfriend, my eyes widened with what was being burnt into my retina's. I'm being reminded of what I lack yet again.
I ended up walking into them both having sex a couple more times, one where he even had made horse noises. Reminded of what I lack for the 100th time This is not something a young boy should be viewing before his very own eyes right?
Sex was embedded into my mind, sex, sex sex it's all I'd ever think about.
I was around 10 years old, I did not know how to do self-pleasure yet despite all the porn I had watched during those years, which I'll admit is completely insignificant in comparision to now but still an abundant amount for a boy at that age.
Opened up a suitcase I did, stumbled upon a CD I did, after scavenging for random stuff due to my boredom I had found gold, GOLD!
I whipped that thing open and saw that the CD was still inside YES, YES YES!! but unfortunately for me it's not like I could legitimately play that on the DVD player in my room because then i'd be caught, not exactly a good idea.
So I decide to look at the back of the CD case and saw just the material I needed.
I headed inside of the bathroom, my first time ever relieving myself and I had done it then and there.
This is only temporary right? I'll only have to use my right hand for a small period of time before a foid comes my way and I finally won't have to use it anymore right?
Surely that day will come right?? Oh how mistaken I was.
And on this day, after all of what I had seen, what I had watched and currently what I was watching I remembered all of it.
Stroke 1
Stroke 2
Stroke 3
Stroke 4
Stroke 5
It goes on and on and on, I started to feel numb.
Then the thoughts set in:
*They get to experience carnal pleasure through intercourse with one another and I don't)
Stroke 6
*I have to use my hand as a faux substitute, a piss poor attempt at imitative reproduction*
I can't do this anymore, pretending i'm the one on the receiving end of the blowjob, pretending i'm the one having sex.
I click off the video and I go straight to gore, I go straight to videos where foids are inflicted with severe physical and mental pain
Somewhat the only thing that will ever make me feel good in this world is seeing the opposite gender of me being beaten assaulted in any way shape or form possible.
A foid wants to provoke me all the timeee everysingle time of the day, but they wouldn't say that to the current me not to his face.
Because if they did I'd make the case of junko furuta look like childs play.
Foids never given me a chance, they've never shown me mercy so just what mercy should I have for them? I shouldn't have any, currently I don't and I never will.
My cope is gone, foids ruined my brotherhood and sexhavers have ruined my life.
Foids have caused me to resort to self pleasure over just the idea of ascension.
Foids have deprived me of what it's like to live, Both sex life and even emotions like joy.
A foid and normie had seen my penis when I was around 12 years old whilst I was walking and I didn't even realize my pants were down.
They were recording me, laughing so hard and as I turnt around it got even worse, my penis in the flesh, recorded by them.
Before I knew it there were groups of foids hurdled together watching over a phone with what I presume to be the video of my penis out on display.
I know this because some of them glanced over at me, giving me such dirty looks.
FOIDS HAD ENCOUNTERED ME IN THE CAFETERIA, BUT THESE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE MY CLASSMATES, GIGGLED YELLING MY NAME PUSHING ME AGAINST THE WALL, WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK, I WAS STANDING IN LINE MINDING MY FUCKING BUSINESS AND THESE FOIDS HAD PHYSICALLY ASSAULTED LITTLE MANOFVENGEANCE THINKING IT WAS A FUNNY THING TO DO.
FUCK THESE GOD DAMN HOES, I HOPE THAT BLONDIE BITCH IS A SINGLE ROASTIE AND ENDS UP IN A BATHTUB OF HER OWN BLOOD WITH A RAZORBLADE ON THE GROUND, THAT BITCH DESERVES TO DIE!
And again this is not the only things they've done to me, I was not even allowed to live!
YOU LUCKY FOIDS OF BITCHES, YOU ARE LUCKY I WAS HIGH INHIB AND RETARDED BACK THEN, OTHERWISE I'D HAVE FUCKING CHIPPED YOUR TEETH OUT. BUT TEST ME NOW WHORES, TRY TO FUCK WITH ME NOW AND I'LL SHOW YOU WHY MY NAME IS MANOFVENGEANCE IN THE FIRST PLACE YOU FUCKING REPUGNANT BEEF CURTAIN PUSSY RIDDLED SLUT FOIDS.
IT'S NOT LIKE I COULDN'T HAVE KILLED THOSE FOIDS THEN AND THERE, I JUST DIDN'T HIT THEM AT THE TIME BECAUSE I WANTED TO AVOID TROUBLE, IT'S SEEN AS A SOCIALLY BAD THING FOR A MAN TO DEFEND HIMSELF RIGHT? RIGHT??? I WAS PUNISHED FOR DEFENDING MYSELF AS A KID, BUT I SURE DID BEAT THE FUCK OUT OF FOIDS AT HOME. I AM NOT WEAK, I AM A TOP TIER PHYSICAL SPECIMEN, GOING AS FAR TO SAY I AM A UNIT. GOD HAS NOT GIVETH ME LOOKS BUT HE HAS GIVETH ME POWER, AND POWER THAT I WILL USE TO DISPLAY MY DOMINANCE IF YOU FOIDS WANT A KNUCKLE SANDWHICH.
Foids have ruined every aspect of living for me.
I should hate them, I should want to tear them to pieces.
They want to fuck with me untill they get a fair share of the pain I feel, but no how many times a foid is raped, no how many how many times a foid is beaten, it still won't even amount to a fucking spec of what I went through, and on this thread i've not even went into full depth about the attrocities done to me by foids, sexhavers, normies and this entire god damn fucking world.
I'm such a fucking gentleman with all the patience i've had with these bastards, BUT I'VE HAD IT UP TO HERE WITH THESE FUCKS. DAMN THEM TO HELL.
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