I already graduated a few years ago but I found a journal where I vented about how miserable and depressing my life was. It was from my junior year. Here’s how it goes (paraphrased because I haven’t figured out how to upload pictures yet)
I woke up at 5:15am today and It’s a Tuesday which sucks because I still have to go to school for 4 more days
I ate breakfast at 5:30am. I just had an old donut I got from work then my mom yelled at me to brush my teeth. (I worked at a grocery store then and I still do now)
6:15am I finished breakfast and got ready for school. I don’t have to be there until like 7 but I want to relax
7am I drove to school and walked to my computer class in the basement
2:15pm I just got out of school. I got made fun of or laughed at in every class by at least 1 person except for my computer class where there’s a lot of autists. I don’t have any real friends I’m basically a jester the only reason I exist for them is to make them laugh. It’s humiliating to be seen so low when I know they don’t actually like me. I just need people to sit with at lunch and do group projects with so I don’t constantly feel alone because I’d rather be made fun of than be lonely
5pm I ate dinner and got ready for work. I get verbally abused by old people because I live in New England where everyone is a fucking asshole especially to customer service and young people
9:30pm I got cheeseballs because I had a bad day and I was hungry
5:15am I showered and went to bed listening to tv to feel less alone at like 11. It barely helped I still didn’t fall asleep until like 12:30 so I barely got any sleep.
I got zero text messages and nobody added me on Snapchat. I’ve had it for years and I still have the score of a 12 year old who’s had it for a week from trying to start snap streaks.
0 girls my age talked to me today like usual
I found this journal in my basement room under the couch when I was trying to move it. I forgot I made it because I only ever did it for like 3 days for some reason it probably just made me cry or something
I woke up at 5:15am today and It’s a Tuesday which sucks because I still have to go to school for 4 more days
I ate breakfast at 5:30am. I just had an old donut I got from work then my mom yelled at me to brush my teeth. (I worked at a grocery store then and I still do now)
6:15am I finished breakfast and got ready for school. I don’t have to be there until like 7 but I want to relax
7am I drove to school and walked to my computer class in the basement
2:15pm I just got out of school. I got made fun of or laughed at in every class by at least 1 person except for my computer class where there’s a lot of autists. I don’t have any real friends I’m basically a jester the only reason I exist for them is to make them laugh. It’s humiliating to be seen so low when I know they don’t actually like me. I just need people to sit with at lunch and do group projects with so I don’t constantly feel alone because I’d rather be made fun of than be lonely
5pm I ate dinner and got ready for work. I get verbally abused by old people because I live in New England where everyone is a fucking asshole especially to customer service and young people
9:30pm I got cheeseballs because I had a bad day and I was hungry
5:15am I showered and went to bed listening to tv to feel less alone at like 11. It barely helped I still didn’t fall asleep until like 12:30 so I barely got any sleep.
I got zero text messages and nobody added me on Snapchat. I’ve had it for years and I still have the score of a 12 year old who’s had it for a week from trying to start snap streaks.
0 girls my age talked to me today like usual
I found this journal in my basement room under the couch when I was trying to move it. I forgot I made it because I only ever did it for like 3 days for some reason it probably just made me cry or something
