Serious Am back in my hometown

[VλREN]

I’ve returned to my hometown for Christmas, it’s only been six months since I left on short notice

I am feeling white pilled but also paranoid, I’ll explain it like this

Completely miserable and blackpilled: not a lot of fear, don’t really feel paranoid just completely pissed and resentful towards the world

Somewhat hopeful and whitepilled: I feel euphoric but I also start to feel very paranoid and worried about the future

I know it’s probably just short term hope and euphoria but I know I got to use it to fuel something

Beyond that I don’t feel anything being here, I don’t feel any teary eyed nostalgia or any crap like that.

It’s more of a feeling like “oh yeah this the one mile radius i spent nine years and my teen years mindlessly screwing around out”. But I’ll tell you that the first few months after leaving this place was the worst, like all I wanted to do was return to this place.

I lived in my home town my entire life until now, but I lived in this particular area of the town for 9 years (I was 13 when we moved in and then I was 22 when I left) I get this feeling that it’s the same old insanity tbh, like I am just reanimating my old habits

Perhaps that’s the only thing I am good at……

 

[zangano1]

Enjoy

 

[Emba]

Too many folks think moving away is better.

Sometimes it is, but often its not.

You have to start at the bottom each time you move.

 

[ravisk]

I fucking hate my town with such an extreme and boiling hatred because of the females there that no one could even comprehend my rage.

 

[Caichan]

Halloween hatred

 

[ColderManTruce]

Enjoy