And the website he left behind.
Mixing the Bluepill with having a Oneitis proved deadly.
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I’ve always thought that of all jobs to have as an Incel, High School teacher must be up near the top of the list of the worst. I mean think about it, your students are all in the prime of their youth, most of whom have endless possibilities at their feet, and are engaging in all of the usual rites-of-passage that normal young people go through. With first love being one of them, and right in front of your very eyes. Imagine it happening time after time, multiple times a day, year after year, what you couldn’t and have never experienced (and never will experience) on a loop. All the while you get older, greyer and emptier. It’s like sadomasochism times a 1000.
Well this particular story is about one of those unfortunate men, an Incel high school teacher, and it all started just over a decade ago and culminated in (predictable, if you’re an Incel reading this) tragedy on 20th September 2013. His name was Christopher Swanson. This is his website:
The Pessimist Was Right All Along
There is scant few articles online about the suicide of Christopher Swanson, and even less is known about the man’s private life or early years growing up. What little you will find will simply refer to an “incident at Mercyhurst University in Erie, Pennsylvania, in which a 41 year old male died from a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head.” At this time of typing I found 4 original news articles:
https://merciad.mercyhurst.edu/3919/news/tragedy-campus/
https://www.huffpost.com/entry/christopher-swanson-suicide_n_3964243
http://www.bradfordera.com/news/ex-...cle_a76b7cf4-22d8-11e3-8c9f-0019bb2963f4.html
https://solomonswords.blogspot.com/2013/09/former-teacher-that-caused-safety.html
His obituary:
https://gantnews.com/2013/09/20/obituary-notice-christopher-r-swanson/
And his place on
findagrave.
And that’s it. The news articles themselves seek to portray him as a man obsessed with one of his students, driven to madness after being exposed and forced to resign from his teaching job, before eventually committing suicide at the university she was a Freshman at (which he himself had no connection to) and almost have a predatory tone about them. The couple of Reddit threads (see here and here) that still exist predictably are full of comments calling the deceased man all kinds of unpleasant names and have all the tone, hyperbole, over-reaction and condemnation one would expect from typical Redditors.
The truth of this story however is of course a little deeper, and other Incels and lonely men will perhaps be better placed than most to understand it. Here’s the gist:
Christopher Swanson was a 1990 graduate of the West Branch High School in Clearfield County, Pennsylvania and was valedictorian. He was also a graduate of Penn State University. He was a former teacher at the Smethport High School, where he taught physics, and was highly respected in his profession to the point where other teachers would be asked to observe his methods of teaching.
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Christopher Swanson was valedictorian of his year
As detailed on his website, he “loved” his work and was passionate about his job, and according to those who knew him was “well respected.”
He was also totally alone.
In spite of his on the surface, outwardly successful appearing life, he (in his words) was missing the one thing he wanted more than anything else in the world, his “Eve.” In other words, Christopher Swanson was a desperately sad and lonely man, and had gone through his life lacking a loving female partner to share it with. He was getting older, and time was (in his head) running out, this bothered him. Alot.
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A screenshot from Christopher Swanson’s “suicide note” website.
So one day in 2011 when Christopher was 39 years old, a 17 year old female student confided in him about troubles in her home life and problems she was having. The two then began exchanging text messages back and forth, it all began innocently enough but for Christopher (a 39 year old lonely Incel) this sudden attention from a female (something which he had never experienced before and longed for his whole adult life) became much more to him than just being an ear for this students problems. He began to develop romantic feelings for the student, and by all accounts (judging by the text messages they exchanged) the feeling was mutual.
Things appeared to carry on in this vein for a few months, texting back and forth between the pair, they also according to the text messages shared a couple of hugs and talked about their feelings in what all seems rather tame Victorian-style language. Then what happens next isn’t entirely clear, what we do know is that Christopher suddenly resigned on January 30th 2012, on March 8th 2012 an Educator Misconduct Complaint was filed against him and on May 17th 2013 was found guilty of Professional Misconduct and stripped of his teaching certificate. He chose not to answer the memorandum, therefore the facts were deemed admitted.
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Christopher Swanson (far right) pictured months before he was forced to resign.
We don’t know if the student ended the relationship, or if the school found out or the students parents (most likely) found out about it somehow and informed the school, but what we do know is that the after effects of all this proved devastating for Christopher. Both professionally and mentally. What in his mind seemed like a genuine chance at happiness and love, something which he’d been denied his whole adult life, ended up being the starting gun (excuse the pun) to what ultimately would be his untimely death at age 41. In his affection-starved brain he let his emotions run away with themselves and get the better of him, this was perhaps natural as all of this was new to him and no doubt exciting. The thought of this “damsel in distress” falling in love with him like he was falling for her, overtook all sense of logic in his head. Gone was any sense of professionalism, of remaining grounded, of reality.
What he really needed to do, and what he failed miserably at, was take a step back and look at the cold hard facts of the situation and apply logic to them:
He was a 39 year old man. She was 17 and on the cusp of having the world at her feet.
Is she really going to love a greying, dull, middle-aged man that’s old enough to be her dad?
You’ve spent your spare time in your adult life watching anime (check the Emo/Doomer anime song playing on a loop on his website), playing Dungeons and Dragons and running BattleTech games for your mates. Is this the kind of thing a 17 year old female finds thrilling?
You’re her teacher, she’s your student. When does this shit EVER end well, Google it at least Christopher lol.
This whole case highlights firstly, the danger of “Oneitis.” Fixating on one woman and believing she can solve all of the problems in your empty, broken, private life and you can make up for a lifetime of Inceldom and loneliness, and it will magically all get better if you get with this person. Secondly, The Bluepill mindset that many introverted men of his era sadly have fallen into, the feminist mantra and Bluepilled lies or at least the ancient advice that did in fact work in the pre-sexual revolution distant past, which basically said all you had to do was work hard, be kind and eventually a woman would come into your life. When in reality a dose of The Blackpill was needed (If it hasn’t happened by now, then it’s never going to. And if something all of a sudden seems to good to be true, than it DEFINITELY is) and would have prevented what was to come on…
On 19th September 2013, Christopher Swanson posted the following message on his (now long-deleted) Facebook:
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Swanson choose his suicide location for maximum effect.
He obviously chose the University so his suicide would have maximum impact on the community, but also much more importantly (to him) the student. Also, according to the Erie Times-News, it was discovered that the rifle contained two bullets. This raised the question — Was the other bullet perhaps meant for the Mercyhurst student? I have to say I don’t think so, it doesn’t seem like (thankfully) he had it in him and would go against the grain of his previous mild, good-natured character. Still, he was also unhinged towards the end of his life, so we can never be sure or know for certain either way.
Whether this whole event ever impacted the student or not we don’t know, obviously she won’t have been able to not notice the significance of this event occurring at the university where she attended and lived on-campus, and undoubtedly would have been shaken up for at least a short while. We are all human, after all. What I was able to find out was that tragically after this event the students father also suddenly died just 3 days later, so a tragic coincidence. It appears that she was able to put all this behind her and eventually graduate and secure a good job and get married (I’m not revealing sources, but let’s just say it took a hell of a long time of skewering publicly available information and piecing everything together, I should’ve been a detective jfl ).
Meanwhile, all we’re left of Christopher Swanson is his eerie (again pardon the pun lol) “suicide note” website, and that’s literally it. And I mean literally, as sadly his mother passed away on 27th June 2015 and his only sibling, a brother called Bradley Swanson died on 10th December 2017. Both were heartbroken after Christopher’s suicide. All are buried in the same plot.
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To surmise, this story is about what happens if you fail to learn basic life lessons in your 20s.
I mean, imagine being a 41 year old, sad and depressed school teacher with not much to offer, and thinking a beautiful young woman with everything going for her, is going to want you. Yes you! You're the ageing, sad, not-much-fun loser she's been dreaming about! Giggling about with her friends. Thinking and dreaming about you as she lies awake alone in bed at night. You!! That's all you!
Bluepilled delusion doesn't even begin to cover it.
This is right up there with believing those advertisements on those porn sites about how beautiful 10/10 Russian models wanna fuck and marry lonely, old men: “Her knickers are getting wet for you already, just send us your credit card details to get this beautiful romance started!” Don’t get me wrong, I'm truly sorry about his life of suffering. He wrote about his pain well, and when I read it I'm immediately transported back to how I felt when I was 19 or 22. But that's the thing. This man made it to 41 years old with his delusions intact, having apparently learned nothing. No capacity for critical thought. No emotional intelligence. No resilience or toughness. A grown-ass adult, but just as open to following his Bluepilled, blueballed dick into self-chosen misery like a teenager.
Learn from your youth. Learn to make sensible plans and life choices. Don't make ludicrous, life-destroying bad choices. Don't be like this guy.
Lastly, to any NPC’s who start yelling obscenities about the man and accusing him of committing crimes and of being some kind of habitual abuser due to nature of the circumstances in which he was forced to resign from his job as a teacher etc, I think this comment from someone who knew Christopher addresses these points better than I could hope to:
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