SuicideFuel All I ever wanted is to be loved

[Jellycoh]

As I sit here writing this I know I won't be able to sleep tonight.
My life is an unbearable loneliness and never ending suffering ever since the day I was born.
I just wish I had someone here with me right now. I wish she would hold my hand, cuddle with me and tell me how much she loves me, how much I matter to her. She would love me for the autist that I am and see the better man in me.

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But then I wake up to reality and realize I will sleep alone again like I always do, without ever having touched the hand of a woman, without having had any of the social experiences and adventures teenage boys had while I suffered alone. No going to the mall with friends, messing around, meeting a girl and kissing her then getting her number for a date later, and, at night, sleeping overwhelmed from joy at just imagining how our date is going to be like. Well, now I sleep alone, depressed, hopeless for the future. No stories to tell. Nothing. It was all a waste.
Some other guy is fucking his girl right now being loved by her and feeling the warm touch of a woman. All while I write this, pathetic. All those who bullied me are living happy lives now, I see it all the time, sad. I didn't get anything for being a "nice guy", just pain and suffering all my life. And now after all of that, folks in places like IT are gonna screenshot me and laugh at me even more just so I feel worse while they have the sex and love I've always wanted
Fuck my life man, fuck my life

It'll be okay, we're with you for now.
Maybe for a long while but dont break your head with this shit alr? You're alive and thats what matters at the end

 

[Defetivecuckachu]

We hear you man.

But

folks in places like IT are gonna screenshot me and laugh at me even more just so I feel worse while they have the sex and love I've always wanted

I'm gonna stop you right there.

People in IT are not having the sex you always wanted. IT is one of the biggest incel subreddits, they are just in the most denial.

 

[ogercel]

Gotta fix that personality bro

 

[Aspiegamercel]

I wish I had someone, I'll never be loved and have a girlfriend either. I just don't have the right genetics I guess. It's hard not to feel bitter at this world.

 

[EmperorCaligula]

As I sit here writing this I know I won't be able to sleep tonight.
My life is an unbearable loneliness and never ending suffering ever since the day I was born.
I just wish I had someone here with me right now. I wish she would hold my hand, cuddle with me and tell me how much she loves me, how much I matter to her. She would love me for the autist that I am and see the better man in me.

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But then I wake up to reality and realize I will sleep alone again like I always do, without ever having touched the hand of a woman, without having had any of the social experiences and adventures teenage boys had while I suffered alone. No going to the mall with friends, messing around, meeting a girl and kissing her then getting her number for a date later, and, at night, sleeping overwhelmed from joy at just imagining how our date is going to be like. Well, now I sleep alone, depressed, hopeless for the future. No stories to tell. Nothing. It was all a waste.
Some other guy is fucking his girl right now being loved by her and feeling the warm touch of a woman. All while I write this, pathetic. All those who bullied me are living happy lives now, I see it all the time, sad. I didn't get anything for being a "nice guy", just pain and suffering all my life. And now after all of that, folks in places like IT are gonna screenshot me and laugh at me even more just so I feel worse while they have the sex and love I've always wanted
Fuck my life man, fuck my life

I feel you on this, I hug my pillow at night and cry myself to sleep, all I ever wanted as since I was a kid is to be loved, I wasnt loved by my parents nor a girl, I stalk any girl that gives me the slightest good attention or even compliments me, whenever I come across a romantic reel on my phone I just get a sharp feeling in my heart, whenever I see a romantic scene in a movie it just ruins my mood, I just want to hug someone at night, protect someone, share a moment, everytime I see a movie where people fall in love I just imagine myself and Im visualise myself having a moment like that but irl I just stay alone, silent and walk alone, I remember when I was young about 13 maybe I was playing hide and seek with a large group of people and I fell in love with one of the girls and when we were hiding I followed her and hid with her and tried getting closer, she didnt mind me but she never looked my way or talked to me and ignored me, a few days later she dated one of my friends, I never experienced teenage love, and I always fantasied on going on trips with friends and falling in love with a girl during the journey and that never happened even when I did go on trips in highschool I always stayed silent when in my imagination I was that one social guys that will fall in love, and now I have a small group of friends who are all dating, I scared away ever girl I talked to, and I stay at home for months on end where the only thing I do is read books, play video games, workout and cry I just live life in my daydreams and thoughts

 

[Ijustwantbehappy]

As I sit here writing this I know I won't be able to sleep tonight.
My life is an unbearable loneliness and never ending suffering ever since the day I was born.
I just wish I had someone here with me right now. I wish she would hold my hand, cuddle with me and tell me how much she loves me, how much I matter to her. She would love me for the autist that I am and see the better man in me.

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But then I wake up to reality and realize I will sleep alone again like I always do, without ever having touched the hand of a woman, without having had any of the social experiences and adventures teenage boys had while I suffered alone. No going to the mall with friends, messing around, meeting a girl and kissing her then getting her number for a date later, and, at night, sleeping overwhelmed from joy at just imagining how our date is going to be like. Well, now I sleep alone, depressed, hopeless for the future. No stories to tell. Nothing. It was all a waste.
Some other guy is fucking his girl right now being loved by her and feeling the warm touch of a woman. All while I write this, pathetic. All those who bullied me are living happy lives now, I see it all the time, sad. I didn't get anything for being a "nice guy", just pain and suffering all my life. And now after all of that, folks in places like IT are gonna screenshot me and laugh at me even more just so I feel worse while they have the sex and love I've always wanted
Fuck my life man, fuck my life

I’d like to come home after a long day and see a beautiful woman who loves me unconditionally waiting for me

I’d like to lie in her arms and just relax, I’d like to talk for hours about my day while she strokes my head

I just want to be happy and to be completely honest, at this point there’s nothing I can do about it, my looks and personality ruin any chance I have of being happy with someone. It’s over every single time

 

[Lo3e]

same

 

[Ijustwantbehappy]

Seeing that picture is suifuel i want that shit

Sad fucking truth. They can do anything. But human, it's all moron. If you're rich or a handsome shit, you can do whatever the real girl wants.

 

[AutismKing]

I feel you on this, I hug my pillow at night and cry myself to sleep, all I ever wanted as since I was a kid is to be loved, I wasnt loved by my parents nor a girl, I stalk any girl that gives me the slightest good attention or even compliments me, whenever I come across a romantic reel on my phone I just get a sharp feeling in my heart, whenever I see a romantic scene in a movie it just ruins my mood, I just want to hug someone at night, protect someone, share a moment, everytime I see a movie where people fall in love I just imagine myself and Im visualise myself having a moment like that but irl I just stay alone, silent and walk alone, I remember when I was young about 13 maybe I was playing hide and seek with a large group of people and I fell in love with one of the girls and when we were hiding I followed her and hid with her and tried getting closer, she didnt mind me but she never looked my way or talked to me and ignored me, a few days later she dated one of my friends, I never experienced teenage love, and I always fantasied on going on trips with friends and falling in love with a girl during the journey and that never happened even when I did go on trips in highschool I always stayed silent when in my imagination I was that one social guys that will fall in love, and now I have a small group of friends who are all dating, I scared away ever girl I talked to, and I stay at home for months on end where the only thing I do is read books, play video games, workout and cry I just live life in my daydreams and thoughts

Damn, brutal. Can relate with you a lot.
I also daydream a lot to escape reality.
Following you.

 

[AutismKing]

I’d like to come home after a long day and see a beautiful woman who loves me unconditionally waiting for me

I’d like to lie in her arms and just relax, I’d like to talk for hours about my day while she strokes my head

I just want to be happy and to be completely honest, at this point there’s nothing I can do about it, my looks and personality ruin any chance I have of being happy with someone. It’s over every single time

 

[GloriousMisanthrope]

It’s so over bro.

“just be yourself it always gets better“

like why is mental health advice literally just the same shit over and over again like this is getting so tiring and ridiculous.

The best mental health advice would be to just keep saying it’s over because it is soo over

Emphasizing "mental health" as the root of our problems is diabolic. I bet most people would go insane if they lived like us, but somehow it's our fault for being a bit dysfunctional, misanthropic and misogynistic. Even the most docile dog can become aggressive if mistreated. "Mental health" today is just doublespeak for brainwashing. They want you to be a mindless automaton who never fights back.

 

[stsaturn]

Absolute gold. I know

 

[KeanuK]

No love for your autism

Unfortunately you might never be

Women will never love us, Not in this generation. It is a brutal thing to accept but their a possible salvation at the end of this road. The technology may save us after all by creating beings that can love the unlovable.

I wish I had someone, I'll never be loved and have a girlfriend either. I just don't have the right genetics I guess. It's hard not to feel bitter at this world.

 

[Gfx.ia]

Me too

 

[BadStartingStats]

Same another Friday/Saturday night alone what's new

No love for your autism

 

[societysucks]

its over

 

[tired as fuck]

Emphasizing "mental health" as the root of our problems is diabolic. I bet most people would go insane if they lived like us, but somehow it's our fault for being a bit dysfunctional, misanthropic and misogynistic. Even the most docile dog can become aggressive if mistreated. "Mental health" today is just doublespeak for brainwashing. They want you to be a mindless automaton who never fights back.

Strong post.

 

[DjentlemanDuke]

I got rejected too many times, it's over niggas

 

[bruno eurich]

We all want to be loved - But women are hard to meet in my experience

 

[sub3genecel]

I didn't get anything for being a "nice guy"

Nice guys finish last

 

[nihilum]

I need a girlfriend.

 

[garfield]

fuck this is brutal

 

[thejbird]

>go on Instagram
>gets recommended post from “playboy” (not related to the models)
>talks about men who want older women
>comment section filled with Stacys mocking them for “ohh they just want a mommy, they are weak and babies LOL!”
>few months later gets recommended another post from playboy
>talks about “simps” and people who female, online streamers and those who pay for their livelihood (nsfw and not)
>goes to comment section expecting it to be filled with people calling it “creepy”
>comment section literally filled with women saying “you mean simps as in men who actually like and respect women?” And “make men simps again” and “it’s ok to simp, you’re a good boy”
>I get rightfully pissed off and realize that these female models literally want men to be their piggy banks and it’s literally not about respecting women yeah, they somehow think paying for it automatically makes it fine
>I reply under one comment
>the model foid says “the reason why you are all miserable is because respecting women and being friendly, is considered found upon” (suggesting that Financial domination = being respectful to foids) literally said in her final sentence “ maybe the only reason why women are obsessed with money because it’s the only thing you’ve got lol”
>gets super pissed off
>i reply to the foid who say “it’s OK to simp you are a good boy” (it was mostly a vent post I made about my struggles with getting a girlfriend)
>she replies with “aww don’t worry cutie, You will get a girlfriend. you can get a girlfriend”
>simply didn’t reply to her

It is bluepilled ass shit like this That genuinely makes me wanna go fucking insane like “don’t worry you’ll get a girlfriend I trust you” LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP I TRIED AND I EITHER GOT CATFISHED BY MY OWN “FRIENDS” GOT “FRIENDZONED” GOT HIT WITH THE “IM SORRY BUT I ALREADY GOT A BOYFRIEND” OR THE “IM SORRY BUT ALL MY FRIENDS HAVE BOYFRIENDS” LIKE NO THE FUCK THEY ALL DONT (she looks alt) AND IF THEY DO THEN I AM GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF FROM THIS SHIT! I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!

 

[walus34]

OTOH, at least you don't have an ungrateful entitled parasite in your life which most modern women are

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