I swear I go through at least a pack a day at this point, it’s the one of the only dopamine sources I have left. I remember a time in my life when I was younger and happier, most likely due to not being as blackpilled and I didn’t get rejected and heartbroken by any foids yet. Nowadays my happier days are not even a memory. My joy and peace is buried within my subconscious and it keeps getting deeper, rotting and decomposing beneath the surface of my thoughts. I am beginning to forget what it was like to actually be happy. I even have some short term memory loss because of brain rot from too much screen time.
