Once you see their behavior for what it really is, you no longer want to be anywhere near them. Don't get me wrong, I'm still attracted to women on a sexual level, (just because my primitive urges compel me to be) but that's where it ends. However, long gone are any delusions of "love" and "mutual respect" that I've once had.
Having been raised in a bluepilled household where "respect women" is something I've constantly been told growing up, I wanted them to like me. My whole life, I made it my mission to win a girl's affections. I was your typical teenage cuck who believed that a shy NAWALT who is "just like me" exists somewhere out there and would be willing to give me a chance. I tried pretty much everything, from approaching girls in my class to online dating to orbiting e-girls on Discord. Not only was I rejected, I was treated with nothing but disdain. If they didn't pretend that I didn't exist, they mocked and bullied me or used me for validation.
I want nothing to do with women anymore. 22 years of being blackpilled and being exposed to female behavior made me realize that they're all exactly the same. The way the act, the way they talk, the way they view ugly and autistic men as subhuman, it fills me with nothing but indescribable hatred. When I look at a woman, I no longer see a thing of beauty; all I see is the lies, the monkey-branching, all the different chads and tyrones that fucked her on a daily basis. They genuinely repulse me, to the point where most of my sexual fantasies nowadays involve rape or coercion. I no longer see them as equals, I see them as nothing but shallow and unintelligent beings—little more than whiny toddlers who society always caters to.
Something that a lot of people get wrong is that the blackpill isn't an ideology, it's simply the state of seeing reality as it is. I wasn't "indoctrinated" by anyone, all it took was years of rejection and bullying at the hands of women for me to realize the bitter truth.
Having been raised in a bluepilled household where "respect women" is something I've constantly been told growing up, I wanted them to like me. My whole life, I made it my mission to win a girl's affections. I was your typical teenage cuck who believed that a shy NAWALT who is "just like me" exists somewhere out there and would be willing to give me a chance. I tried pretty much everything, from approaching girls in my class to online dating to orbiting e-girls on Discord. Not only was I rejected, I was treated with nothing but disdain. If they didn't pretend that I didn't exist, they mocked and bullied me or used me for validation.
I want nothing to do with women anymore. 22 years of being blackpilled and being exposed to female behavior made me realize that they're all exactly the same. The way the act, the way they talk, the way they view ugly and autistic men as subhuman, it fills me with nothing but indescribable hatred. When I look at a woman, I no longer see a thing of beauty; all I see is the lies, the monkey-branching, all the different chads and tyrones that fucked her on a daily basis. They genuinely repulse me, to the point where most of my sexual fantasies nowadays involve rape or coercion. I no longer see them as equals, I see them as nothing but shallow and unintelligent beings—little more than whiny toddlers who society always caters to.
Something that a lot of people get wrong is that the blackpill isn't an ideology, it's simply the state of seeing reality as it is. I wasn't "indoctrinated" by anyone, all it took was years of rejection and bullying at the hands of women for me to realize the bitter truth.
