i despise my horrid, disgusting abomination of a face, a mere glimpse at it fills me with a sense of unbearable anguish and despair, knowing that I'm subjected to navigate this merciless existence in this abysmal vessel for the rest of it; it's starting to take a massive toll on me, i can't partake in any activity without imagining how I look from a third-person perspective, which robs whatever I'm doing of joy as a surge of melancholy takes over; in public, I'm always uneasy and far from comfortable, especially when I catch a glance of myself while walking and get petrified by the thought of people being utterly disgusted; im simply unappealing, aesthetically unpleasing, and repugnant in every conceivable dimension, i try my best to maintain my hygiene, work out, and improve, but to no avail whatsoever; i'll never experience love nor sense the warm touch of a foid due to my hideousness; human decency is impossibly distant, salvation is unattainable, and my dreams will remain mere phantasms. im definitely undergoing a few surgeries if I ever accumulate the amount of jewpapers required, because if I don't, this suifuel will vanquish me, i have so much more to state regarding this dilemma; i truly needed to take this off my chest since it's been intensifying progressively and consuming me from within, my apologies for bitching about it brocels, but it is what it is ig 
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