abyss

[Gamblera]

i am standing on the edge of the abyss of my existence. a few weeks ago, a paralyzing fear took hold of me: first of pills, because i am convinced that if i swallow them, i will choke. then of food, now even of water and my own saliva. every time i have to swallow, everything tightens up and i feel my fear almost fulfilling itself. like a prophecy. i haven't eaten anything for two days, haven't drunk anything for a day. i feel empty but full of fear, parched, and trapped in my own deformed and useless body. i am going to die, i don't want to die. i know that my life is pathetic and miserable. i know that i don't deserve to live. but i still want to hold on to it. it's over.

 

[SupremeSaint]

Go to a doctor

 

[chalk son]

brother, your temples will throb if you don’t take those sips. pills are harder to swallow than actual food at least for me, try to eat something small to work up your appetite and chow snipe for your earthly fuel. i understand how you feel, i was tricked to leave my self-combative preoccupations and it was like they tried to flatten me when i’ve known myself mostly unafflicted in that authentic home, completely plucked there terrorized. comply with ingesting the perishable prize reflecting your hollow need to do so or you’re going to continue to weaken having settled into sheer picklewarts at this infinite longevity threshold goldberging the light expanse as opposed to le abyss broken off from your vessel in due time

 

[kay']

Go to a doctor